Contd....
Me, My Guru – On Gratitude!
Think about it! Inspite of my ignorance regarding breath it happens. Is
it fair? No it is not! He lets body do so many activities and still I keep
questioning “but why does he not do anything good for me? Why can’t I be happy?
When will I be happy? Why can’t I get what I want? I am trying to adjust with
what little comforts I have but why? Is it fair that I suffer so?” so on and on
forth!
Still He doesn’t let the body stop functioning. You are right – it is
not fair. It is not just!
If everything goes as per ‘fair and just’ the one suffering the most
would be me – remember that!”
And then she went to describe various systems of our body and how it
functions and how it is ‘Miracle’ that it does so. This was the reason that
demanded ‘gratitude’ for this body of ours’ that we so took for granted.
Till date I was saying my gratitude only verbally but today I knew what
it meant....I felt a strange sense of peace and joy descend on me. I felt my
tears on my cheek. Man, was I glad that my ego was hurt the other day and I
attended all sessions from that day.
My friend would come for us from abroad, there was marriage to attend,
films to watch, long pending ‘sleep’ to catch, friends get-together or a death
in our circle! No reason was good enough to stop me from attending these
sessions. I didn’t attend these sessions if I was ‘free’ from other
engagements. I attended these sessions inspite of other engagements. This also
I learnt looking at others’ commitment. I didn’t put ‘classes as my ‘last
option’. I fulfilled my other engagements around class.
Previously it was the other way round. Then I felt I was being generous
to her by coming to the class, now I felt it was a privilege to come to this
class. This change made a huge shift in my outlook, perspective and respect for
my own self, my desires and dreams and a will to come out of my pain and
suffering. This was brought out when my friends shared this with me “Once when
we asked our Guru ‘why do you have so many physical ailments and pain inspite
of doing Reiki so much and how come you are happy instead of complaining about
Reiki not giving results?!”
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