Memory

It's so easy to mess up with one's memory!

On Comparison

Don't compare your life to others.

You have no idea what their journey is all about.

desire - it's effect

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It was after 7 pm when we left her place. Some days just happened this way.  We spent the whole day with her yet felt we have to some more time. Today, we had to leave as she went into her room. We received all our answers and all our questions were answered.  But, as we were leaving most of us were silent and even the little talk that we managed seemed obligatory.

Our silence was not heavy like other times. We were not restless. We seemed still. And as I closed the gate behind us, I realized we left major part of ourselves at her place – that part which ‘people’ called as ‘ego’. Yes, we had left our aggressiveness with her.

I smiled. Journey was certainly easy with her around – if we accepted and let her presence enter ourselves – setting aside our ego.

Today, we gained a lot. But the question is, would we apply and benefit out of it? This time I was hell bent on applying it instead of arguing and analysing it.

Let’s see!

Desire - it's effect

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But, she didn’t look like one.  This time, this exercise seemed a bit difficult to apply.  I wasn’t even able to gulp this fact.  So forget about its application.

Two-three days passed, I was constantly thinking about her explanation. I knew one thing for sure. If I followed what she asked me to even without understanding or accepting it, I would always benefit about it.  This time would be no exception.  I decided to put it to practice. It was no use – nay senseless just meeting her, questioning her and seeking answers if I had no intention of walking the path she showed. No.  that would be waste of energy and time both for me and My Guru.  It didn’t make sense.

If I ‘really’ wanted what I sought – to be far above the crowd, I had no choice but to live and behave as one.  She was right.  This was no easy path but certainly not an impossible one too! I would walk on this path and fail than sit on the starting line and be complaining about life and life’s situations. Enough of living this life of limitations and mediocrity. I’ve hated myself so many times because of this and other limitations.  Now, was the time to break that and walk towards ‘my freedom’ – freedom from my lower nature and my weaknesses.  Let others go to hell. Their karma would do my job.  Let me concentrate on my journey to heaven.  Heaven - not which I would go to after death.  But the heaven, that I would experience being alive and being free from my expectations and negative emotions. Being able to give my best not for someone or in return to something but because I want to and I am capable of giving better than what I am presently giving.

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Desire - it's effect

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“Because, previous karmas and vasanas will cloud my 3^rd eye and thereby my clarity of thought, line of thought, understanding and sense of reasoning.  So do away with these vasanas. I am given so many methods in Reiki like hands-on, re-birth meditation etc. When done regularly my nature would change for better by my negative qualities being replaced with positive ones and increase my awareness and understanding capacity along with acceptance and increase eagerness to embrace the ‘right’ and letting go of ‘my ego’. So much should happen before the ‘change of attitude’ happens.  So, the journey is strenuous, painful and long and tiring.  Painful because it’s inwards and we’ve to encounter our lower nature again and again be ready to let go off it and overcome our negativity.  Long and tiring because it doesn’t happen over night, just when you thought you have to decrease one negative trait like anger, it makes it’s bounces or appearance in a situation that would prove your calculation wrong about yourself.  It’s long because, you are all alone on this journey and it’s strenuous because you are training the mind which is so subtle that you can’t see, touch yet is so powerful to wield you across it’s small finger” she smiled.

“Can you give us one simple technique or tip that would help us make this journey possible?” asked Rahul.

“Sure. It’s simple, most effective but most underused technique. 1. Don’t question and analyse the actions of others and keep proving to yourself that they are wrong ad you are right.  2. Don’t justify your actions and feelings. Just let them out of your system. For eg. We usually justify our anger, hatred towards that person by quoting his actions and inactions. Don’t.  stop that right away.  Just know that whatever be the intentions and actions of that person, you anger is bad for you.  He is controlling you when you get angry.  So, stop justifying your anger, hatred and drop it the moment you realize you are experiencing it.  That’s it.  Do it few times and then come back to me.” She said and got up to leave.

We were still lost in thoughts when she left.  It wasn’t easy.  It looked simple but I knew how difficult it was to follow.  It was my natural tendency to ‘right the wrong’ of others and had always ‘strong desire’ to punish all who were wrong.  This nature generated so much of irritation, anger and hatred in me – not to talk about frustration levels.  And I always knew my feelings were right as ‘they’ were ‘wrong’.  But, now I wasn’t to look at other’s fault. I was to constantly monitor myself and my emotions. And the moment, I felt anger I had to ‘let it go’.  That meant, I had to stop thinking, talking and even seeing other’s committing faults. She must be joking ! I thought.

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Desire - it's effect

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Vinay got up and served samosas and sweets that he had brought to all and later went to make and bring tea to all! She was silent all along! She indeed got up and walked away. It must have been one hour before she returned to her seat. By then, we finished snacks and our tea.  We were refreshed both physically and mentally. We were exchanging our understanding with one another when she returned and sat down.

“So, everything clear?” she asked us with a smile that we’ve started associating with her of late.

“Agreed, our basic desire is at fault. But, how can we convert a problematic situation that we face into something beneficial for us? By doing that, will our destination, I mean, our fruits of our karma change?” I asked.

“You can do it in so many ways” she answered immediately “I am yet to see her wait to ponder on a question. Does she know our questions before hand and does she prepare accordingly? How come she has answers for all of our questions” I wondered.

“As a reiki channel, do a. intention to change the situation or  b. the person’s behaviour towards you by doing emotional healing with her  c. do more reiki to muladhara to develop patience. No, you don’t need to tell the intention here! Just by doing, you’ll develop it  d. then do reiki for 3^rd eye to increase clarity of thought  e. full body to heal karma that’s creating such situations f.meditate daily to increase faith and balance of mind  g.conscientiously work to be balanced at all times by being with the moment.

Remember, it is not easy job and it’ll not give results immediately. It doesn’t work like plastic surgery.  It takes years of practice, perseverance and patience to see the results in one self.  When, it happens, then, it becomes easier and the journey looks worthwhile and worth the wait.

You would slip every other time and with a smile you need to get up and work again and again” she summed it.

“but, why can’t I apply it immediately?” asked Priya a bit disheartened.

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Desire - it's effect

…contd….

Vinay got up and served samosas and sweets that he had brought to all and later went to make and bring tea to all! She was silent all along! She indeed got up and walked away. It must have been one hour before she returned to her seat. By then, we finished snacks and our tea.  We were refreshed both physically and mentally. We were exchanging our understanding with one another when she returned and sat down.

“So, everything clear?” she asked us with a smile that we’ve started associating with her of late.

“Agreed, our basic desire is at fault. But, how can we convert a problematic situation that we face into something beneficial for us? By doing that, will our destination, I mean, our fruits of our karma change?” I asked.

“You can do it in so many ways” she answered immediately “I am yet to see her wait to ponder on a question. Does she know our questions before hand and does she prepare accordingly? How come she has answers for all of our questions” I wondered.

“As a reiki channel, do a. intention to change the situation or  b. the person’s behaviour towards you by doing emotional healing with her  c. do more reiki to muladhara to develop patience. No, you don’t need to tell the intention here! Just by doing, you’ll develop it  d. then do reiki for 3^rd eye to increase clarity of thought  e. full body to heal karma that’s creating such situations f.meditate daily to increase faith and balance of mind  g.conscientiously work to be balanced at all times by being with the moment.

Remember, it is not easy job and it’ll not give results immediatley. It doesn’t work like plastic surgery.  It takes years of practice, perseverence and patience to see the results in one self.  When, it happens, then, it becomes easier and the journey looks worthwhile and worth the wait.

You would slip every other time and with a smile you need to get up and work again and again” she summed it.

“but, why can’t I apply it immediately?” asked Priya a bit disheartened.

…contd….