…contd….
But, she didn’t look like
one. This time, this exercise seemed a
bit difficult to apply. I wasn’t even
able to gulp this fact. So forget about its
application.
Two-three days passed, I was
constantly thinking about her explanation. I knew one thing for sure. If I
followed what she asked me to even without understanding or accepting it, I
would always benefit about it. This time
would be no exception. I decided to put
it to practice. It was no use – nay senseless just meeting her, questioning her
and seeking answers if I had no intention of walking the path she showed.
No. that would be waste of energy and
time both for me and My Guru. It didn’t
make sense.
If I ‘really’ wanted what I
sought – to be far above the crowd, I had no choice but to live and behave as
one. She was right. This was no easy path but certainly not an
impossible one too! I would walk on this path and fail than sit on the starting
line and be complaining about life and life’s situations. Enough of living this
life of limitations and mediocrity. I’ve hated myself so many times because of
this and other limitations. Now, was the
time to break that and walk towards ‘my freedom’ – freedom from my lower nature
and my weaknesses. Let others go to
hell. Their karma would do my job. Let
me concentrate on my journey to heaven.
Heaven - not which I would go to after death. But the heaven, that I would experience being
alive and being free from my expectations and negative emotions. Being able to
give my best not for someone or in return to something but because I want to
and I am capable of giving better than what I am presently giving.
…contd…..
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