on love

No one ever gets tired of loving!
They just get tired of waiting,
assuming, hearing lies, 
apologies not made genuinely,
saying sorry for mistakes not done,
pleading, crying and getting hurt!


Yes, No one ever gets tired of loving!

on arrogance!

Always know that you are 'UNIQUE' - but that doesn't mean you think others are 'below' you!

You are UNIQUE just like everyone else!

Confidence is knowing 'you are not below anyone' but arrogance is thinking 'you are above everyone'.

 

Arrogance is the 'art of to be proud' on one's own stupidity. 

Arrogant are 'wise' in their 'own eyes' - but the wise recognise their lies anyway!

A fool flatters himself and the wise flatters the fool!!! 

The greatest setback of arrogance is 'ignorance'. 

It is actually 'weakness disguised as strength'.

Arrogance needs to 'advertise' but confidence 'speaks for itself'.

With enough arrogance, ego and ignorance, you don't have to doubt if there is 'hell'. You 'live' in it every day of your life!

Dare to say and live with a motto 'I would rather be honest than impressive'. 

Dare to outgrow a lesser and easier option and tread on the 'difficult but right path'.

EXPECT ANYTHING FROM

ANYONE...

THE DEVIL 

WAS AFTERALL,

ONCE AN ANGEL!!! 

M, Me Guru - On quitting!

...contd....

“Shall we check into spiritual area?” she asked returning to her seat. But now, respect for her increased! She was the same one. It’s just that we were seeing her in new light.

“The understanding of a person, respect and love for a person, gauging and judging a person and knowing him depended totally on the data available, your processing of the same, your perception and the angle you selected to view that data from and since all these were variable and unreliable, our feelings and emotions though genuine were not ‘Right’. So, don’t take decisions based on your feelings. They would go wrong” these were her words repeated like umpteen times. Today, when we discussed ‘her’ case, we saw ‘her’ in new light and also understood her words differently. But her explanation did not let us venture further in these thoughts.

“In spiritual area, the results are far in between and you hardly know the progress. Not because it is not there but because we do so little, and in this area, lots of work gives ‘little results’. But usually our patience gives way or boredom sets in. So it is rightly said “that out of millions only thousands tread the path of sadhan and in that are thousands of drop-outs and only hundred or two remain to continue for long. Again of them only handful are working with love for God and hence just a handful experience God. But in this field ‘Don’t quit’ come what may. Do sadhan regularly. It may be for ½ an hour but do daily. Over and above that you would do for few days/months depending upon your life situations. But you decide basic sadhan time and do it daily. It’s like brushing your teeth, eating or breathing. You can’t afford to skip breathing if you wish to live.  Same should be the case with sadhan. And again, sadhan doesn’t mean ‘I draw symbol regularly madam or I tell Reiki/Reiki Guruji madam or I think about you Guruji’. They don’t count as ‘sadhan’.

If after doing a ‘technique’ you are more agitated then, if your master can’t find a solution or explain and simply states ‘your karma is getting healed’ or such standard dialogue discontinue healing. Healing should make you feel light. If after doing ‘yoga’ or exercise you feel ‘stiff’ and lazy, it means you are doing it wrong! So, look out for such signs. If you are becoming more greedy, desiring more then re-check the ‘techniques’ you are doing or following. May be you are doing it or were taught wrong. Sadhan should take you towards calmness and peace, if not......when you do yoga, you should become healthy not fall sick often. If such a thing happens you are breathing wrong or in wrong place or wrong way. Similarly, you are doing few ‘asans’ – postures wrong. So it’s time to correct that but for that your master should know the ‘right technique’ and should be able to know where you are going wrong and guide accordingly.

Getting up at 3am and meditating is told by one and all. Yet only few do it. Those who do it for years don’t find any results (well, I don’t know what results they are looking for in the first place! - For I do it for the sheer joy of doing!). But forget about me. When they get up daily and do, they later complain ‘nothing’s happening.’ So getting bored! DON’T QUIT then. These are techniques which may not give results now but will have cumulative effect. Keep doing.

But above all ‘to quit or not to’ in a given situation calls for ‘clarity of thought’ and that takes years of sadhan to get our ‘seeing ability right’. So keep working on it. In the meantime do Reiki, do your part and be detached from results and you’ll be guided pleasantly by Reiki, provided you don’t condition it with your desire. Sometimes, answers to our questions can be ‘No’. But even that is guidance. We don’t ‘listen’ to it because we ‘want’ to hear ‘yes’. So work on expectations, conditions desire and lust and ego and clarity of thought would come bye and by.

Get your doubts if any in next class and I’ll explain then”, so saying she left us for the day.  We all just stayed back for sometime to discuss everything that was bombarded at us. To leave or not to was still a question we didn’t know to answer immediately. Logical mind said “class is over, get out” but heart wanted to linger in that space for some more time...

By the time we left we were still undecided..........

Concluded..........

Me, My Guru - On quitting!

...contd....

We could do lots of discussions in between because our ‘Guru’ was receiving lots of calls today. She usually is very disciplined and professional in this regard. She doesn’t receive any calls during day time and especially during classes. But today she was excusing herself so many times to receive these calls! Couple of students had even commented about that today! But most of us felt it strange but didn’t complain because it came as a blessing for us to discuss and get clarity among ourselves. 

It was during lunch that Aziz told us that ‘her’ parent was in hospital and was serious. She was the one who was looking into every aspect of medication there through these phones. She was guiding and assisting others who were there. She was the one always taking decisions and also taking the brunt of it, he told wryly. He was close to her family and had the opportunity of watching her handling such situations before. After completion of class, she would rush to hospital and be in charge of everything in person from then on.

We were shocked to hear this! She was in the middle of ‘handling such an emotional crisis’ and yet did not cancel this session nor was she absent-minded. She continued exactly from where she left. We had to learn this multi-tasking and switching on/off in an instance from her. How many things more to learn? And yet we were still at place asking ‘should I forgive if he calls me names?’ it was at these times, I felt I had no hope for my growth. I felt I had hardly started after these many years of her hard work.  How many times more can I pity her for taking me as her student?

And she, she knew it all along. But she....

Mein maan bhi loon kabhi haar...

Tu mane na....

She never gave up on us. She never quit on us. She knew us and yet was with us. Is this not the way to ‘live’ a relationship? Knowing someone and yet loving them, caring for them and bearing them? She was leading by example and we hardly saw it. Even when we saw we took it for granted!

...contd....

Me, My Guru - On quitting!

...contd....

Then, I found Viju had closed her eyes for some time and later found her totally relaxed as if a whole lot of stress was removed from her head. I asked her during tea-break as to what happened that seemed to relax her so much. She was smiling and seemed ecstatic. She nodded her head in affirmation and replied “I was not sure where my marriage was going and what I need to do about it. Whether to hold on or give up! I so wanted to ‘quit’ this relationship but couldn’t because of so many socio-personal issues or so I thought! When Guruji said “Look within and see honestly if YOU ARE holding at your end with commitment. Are you giving your 100% to the relationship? Yes, you are ‘giving’ your anger, expectation, hopes, frustration and hatred (not necessarily in that order) but my question is 'are you giving or fulfilling your end of commitment in this relationship wholeheartedly? Did you atleast invest affection 100% from your end? Have you worked at various levels to make it work? Yes, agreed you’ve suffered because of various reasons in your relationship but have atleast done anything to address them instead of ‘just suffering’ with it and spreading its frustration on all around you? How many times you have validated your anger and hatred with the others’ actions and words? Have you tried to understand the other instead of simply complaining that ‘you are not understood?’ Have you healed enough?'

Well, I for sure was shocked. It was as if all her questions were directed at me. Yes, yes, don’t look at me that way! I know she wasn’t directing it on me. But it did fit into my situation perfectly.

Luckily someone suggested a break and she asked all to take a break for 1/2an hour. While others were chit-chatting, instead of using my ‘twisted logic’ to justify my feelings, actions and decisions, I went within and sought answers to these questions. Trust me; I didn’t know I was so stupid all these years for not having seem my negative contribution in my relationship. Yes, he has his faults but I was no better. All these years I was looking only at his flaws and faults but never at myself and my intentions. I was seeking people and their opinion that validated my anger and decisions. But no one asked me to heal our relationship and my shortcomings. I kept saying “whenever I want to do reiki for him, my entire being seems to revolt. Is it not reiki’s way of saying “you don’t need to heal him?”

I remembered her saying ‘send reiki to both saint and the sinner - Saint to be protected from evil forces and negativities and sinner to outgrow his negativities.

So where is the question of not being able to send come in picture? There was nothing as ‘person not eligible to receive’ reiki. It was actually my anger towards him that stopped me from healing – not Reiki. I’ve never worked ‘towards building our relationship so I need to keep going on in this relationship till I heal myself of all the negativities towards this relationship. I can’t quit. Rats leave the ship first when it’s about to sink. Our ship of relationship is sinking but I am not ‘a rat’ and a human I need to give my 100% to it and only then if it still does not work out say “it’s time to quit”.

With this understanding and answer, I felt totally relaxed. Now, I know where I am, how I am and what I need to do. So with this clarity came in this happiness.”

She shared with such infectious joy that it spilled on my understanding of my relationships at various areas and levels. I knew the areas and with whom to heal what! I got clarity – a little bit and that was enough for me to start up my work in the direction of healing.

NEVER LEAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT HEALING IT COMPLETELY!!!

Wow! Today’s session was really proving very beneficial to us!

...contd....

Me, My Guru - On quitting!

...contd.....

In some rare cases, it is a possibility that one person takes, takes and takes from the other and then also abuses for not giving more! In such cases, the moment you realize you are being abused ‘QUIT’. No explanation given to anyone. Don’t expect others to understand. Just ‘QUIT’. You owe yourself basic self-respect. Don’t let ‘leech’ like relationship to suck life out of YOU! Just QUIT. NOW! Don’t wait. However long and socially ideal relationship it may be – just QUIT. And over and above that don’t let guilt weigh your spirit. Just QUIT. And again I repeat, don’t expect others to understand. Your survival is of paramount importance. Nothing else matters.

Many times such decisions may be with relationship which is very close and very basis of your existence. Yet if you realize the other sucking all of you, just QUIT. That person could be your child, parent, sibling, friend, student or even your master. Just leave! Don’t sit to analyse. But mind you, you should’ve given your 100% to this relationship and that person should’ve only used and abused you all through and now the last straw is also dropped. Time you move on. Don’t think “friends since so long”, “how can I as a mother leave a child or vice-versa”, master who exploits you and misguides you and used you to his advantage – even though may be famous and powerful – leave.

Today, we decided to bring lunch from outside as we found her bit occupied since morning and Rahul had already volunteered to bring. He signaled me and we both left to get lunch for all. We left without telling anyone and disturbing anyone.

When we came back, she was on the phone and I sat down as Shruti picked up packets of food to look after serving. 

...contd....