...contd....
In all
such cases we get clear indication whether to quit or keep going but we don’t
‘see’ them or ‘accept’ them because we are our ‘desire-centric’ or
‘pain-centric’.
Learn to
detach your emotions before seeking an answer. Then you’ll hear the answer or
solution loud and clear. Otherwise, all that you listen to is your ‘loud
emotions’ justifying with data that will only show you wrong ‘solutions’.
“Guruji, I
would like to share my experience here with your permission” came the voice
from behind.
She nodded
and the voice continued “Many years ago, I had come to Guruji asking exactly
this question. And she guided me. I was a Govt. Servant then. But I so wanted
to resign as I was bored of that atmosphere and desk job. I thought and felt I
was so out of place then. After talking to our Guruji, who didn’t give a
definite ‘yes’ or ‘no’ for an answer, I got clarity of thought. Yes, inspite of
her never telling me what to do, she guided me to see what I actually wanted to
do with my life. Ofcourse, she underlined that ‘that would be my decision and
either way I had to live with that decision’. I understood.
I went home, did my
healing and sat in meditation and my whole life pictured right in front of my
eyes. I saw what I so desired to do with my life and how my ‘then’ job was
nowhere near that. I was feeling suffocated there inspite of ‘security’ and
regular ‘good salary’. With not a single family member accepting or agreeing, I
resigned my job to take up a career I was so much in love with (or so I
thought). In terms of earning and success, I was sub-zero in my new career and
had to listen to everyone saying ‘told you so’ words and glances.
Financially,
emotionally and physically it was very painful period but my heart was at peace
and more than that I was jubilant and excited everyday of my life as long as I
was on field. Coming home was a different story though. I was making no money
what so ever but I used to love to go to office and be on field, meeting
people. Never did I understand why I couldn’t make it there? People who were
hardly talented made huge profits and yet.......and I was taking up all and
sundry jobs just to make both ends meet but didn’t give up that field.
There I
found that I was ‘Peoples’ person’ and I loved ‘helping people out of their
problems’ and then Reiki happened and I went on to become a ‘master’ and a ‘counsellor’.
Today I am at good space in all areas. But it was necessary for me to go
through that to sharpen my skills as a counsellor, advisor and a healer. Reiki
was pushing me to be ‘here’. It’s only that I didn’t and couldn’t see it then.
So, I say flow with the flow, keep doing sadhan regularly and you’ll go where
you ‘have’ to be!
I thought I ‘knew’ what I wanted. But I didn’t. I just knew
what I didn’t want then and took the next ‘good’ thing that happened to me. But
because, I was not ‘fixed’ and eager to learn and also unlearn and bend as per
the need of the hour, I got easily moulded by the ‘flow of life’ and here I am,
thanks to our Guruji – happy, contended and at peace.
Today, the same people
who said “shouldn’t have resigned” now ask for my guidance. I am glad I am in a
place where I am of some use both to my family and society. I hope, I could be
of use to you too today!”
We turned
to see as to who it was. She was someone whom we haven’t seen here ever. Still
she called our Guruji as ‘hers’ and that she was a master. That was a little
bit confusing. But, then why and how could we know all her students we thought!
Then I relaxed a little bit.
...contd....
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