Me, My Guru
Contd....
I turned the
page. “sometimes you need to walk away......”
I smiled. I knew
what it meant now. I had to collect myself and my thoughts to know where and
why I was walking this path since long. And this trip just did that to me.
Being with myself gave me that much needed ‘me time’. I befriended myself in
this trip. This was not the trip planned by me. It was forced on me. When I had
told her about this trip she had just smiled and said “Enjoy!”. Yes, just
‘enjoy’ nothing else. I thought it funny then – even a bit odd. But today I can
say ‘I did Enjoy this trip!’. And this time, I knew what she meant and I
thanked her for being herself. So as they say “jo hotha hai achche ke liye
hotah hai” worked very well for me – this time atleast.
I went through
the entire stay mentally once again. I relived each and every moment. I savored my stay here. It may not have lived my expectations of being “as
beautiful as heaven” but this Kashmir did present ‘a beautiful me’ as a gift to
me. Time to go! I packed my bags and my emotions too! I sorted my things and
along with them my thoughts. I thanked the staff of the Guest house where I
stayed and who made my stay comfortable. I sat in the lawn of the Guest House
one last time to have one hot cup of tea. I looked at the snow covered peaks at
the distance. I heard the songs of birds. I saw couple of pigeons fight on the
roof top. This place had so much to offer and I had actually missed noticing
all this during my stay. Did I live my life too this way? Was I too lost in
gauging others and carrying the baggage of hurts, pain and expectations to not
notice the beauty that life was offering me? I got my tea. I sipped it. I
relished it. It never tasted so good. I complimented him for the same. He left
with a smile.
I heard the honk
of my car. I left for the Airport.
There after
getting checked-in, I was waiting. I took the last couple of sheets left. They
read “The song is ended, but the melody lingers on”. I smiled. This trip was
over but its scent would linger with me till my last breath. Kabhi koi cheez
poori tharah khatam nahi hoti....khatam hone ke bawajood bhi uska khushboo
rah jatha hai.....i felt something cold
on my cheek and I realized it was my tear. I smiled. Yes, song is over, but
melody lingers on. She is not there but her presence lingers on. People no
longer with us also stay with us. Would I remain as a sweet melody in someones
memory or as a pain in their neck?
I shuddered to
think of the answer. I preferred to linger on as a sweet scent of
remembrance.....
Announcement was
being made for my flight. I took out the last sheet. “Only God and I knew what
I meant when I wrote it, now only God knows!”.
I pushed the
paper into the bag. I looked up. The roof stared at me. I wished to see the sky.
I wished to imagine seeing God looking at me! I experienced and lot here. I
wanted to thank Him. But why it happened, Only He Knows! I let him have his
secret! I took my luggage and walked towards my gate. The visit to this
‘Heaven’ did change me for sure! Travel is good for soul they say! I see it
now!
Au revoir
Kashmir!
And God Bless
this wonderful land of beauty!
Concluded...........
2 comments:
Beautiful words by Guruji and an excellent interpretation by you. It's almost as if she wrote them exclusively for you. I'm sure you know that many a times, I think about you in a problematic situation and you answer my doubts here without me even asking you. Thank you!
Mam
I second Madhumitaji on below lines :
I think about you in a problematic situation and you answer my doubts here without me even asking you. Thank you!
This post was very apt for me today!
Feel so relieved and fresh after reading these lines!
Thank you so much mam!
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