Me,
My Guru
Vibrations
I was disturbed
since 2-3 days. The issue wasn’t something big or new. It was the same old
thing. But still – it was bothering me more than usual. One of my relatives was
very hurtful towards me since ages (well, to say only one relative would be an
understatement but for this time....well....).
That person actually, well, let’s just say she was herself again towards
me. I thought I had got used to it by
now, but no. It hurt me a lot this time. The dosage I received was the usual!
It was only my reaction which was more than usual. I didn’t see any reason to
let it go either. But I think it was Reiki and my years of sadhan that stopped
me from physically or verbally say or do something that I could’ve regretted
later. But my ‘mental peace’ had gone for a toss. I was way much agitated to be
going to ‘her’ place. But Rahul’s insistence and having nothing better to do, I
gave in to his request. Thank-God for having friends like him!
I opened the
gate as the session was in progress. I washed my feet and silently sat in a corner.
“But, he is at
fault this time. I didn’t do anything at all! Why should he behave in such a
mean manner?” somebody in front said. They seemed to be talking about some
issue. Others also joined in to justify this boy’s point. It seemed like a
group discussion. These things happened often here! Someone would bring their
issue and put it out and each one gave his or her opinion or suggestion on it.
She simply let it go on for sometime. Then when it seemed to go no where or had
met with a dead end she would start her explanation. This was the scenario each
time.....
I actually liked
these sessions. We got to know others’ point of view and perspective. We also
understand how each perspective was not giving us any solution. If we didn’t
find solution among our talk, then we always had her as a last resort. So, this
was in a way very good.
This went on for
some time. Each was arguing for and against that boy’s statement. I listened
carefully. I didn’t know what or where it started but it seemed more or less like
my situation.
I felt glad when
someone was saying that the boy was right. It meant I was right. I felt angry,
hurt or sad when he was argued against. That meant this people were against me.
They didn’t see the situation clearly. They took sides with the wrong person.
That hurt! Atleast these people should understand I felt and yet....i was on
the verge of tears. I held it back with difficulty. Her voice seemed to do that
job effortlessly.
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