On
knowing self!
Me,
My Guru
Today’s sesson
was going to be special – or that’s what I had gathered from what she (my Guru)
said. What and how it was special was not known to me or us. After attending so
many of her classes and sessions we no longer asked her ‘what the class was
about’ – we blindly paid the fees and attended her class – whenever she decided
to conduct one for us. I think this was the ‘gift we gave ourselves’ thanks to
our trust in ‘her’ now – after so many years of councelling, healing and
attending her lectures. This gift made us comfortable and relaxed. It helped us
to be – just be for the classes without any expectation or demands.
I, over the
years had realized that if I was in a better frame of mind when I attended her
session or class, I actually benefitted far more than otherwise! And so today I
was bit angry and more upset with myself for not being in right frame of mind. These
couple of days had been bit taxing to me – emotionally. Not that I had major
issue or anything. Actually it was a very small thing. I knew it and yet couldn’t
get myself to get over it.
Not satisfied
with how I felt, I entered ‘the class’. We were just few of us in the class
today – just about ten of us. That seemed like a relief. At the same time it
meant I was more in the open than usual. How can the same thing be both good
and bad at the same time I wondered!
We exchanged
pleasantries fro sometime before our session. But inspite of it, the air seemed
heavy with ‘God knows what’!
....contd......
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