On love - Bhagavatam

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“Yes, when I sit in sadhan I fix my mind too here! Not only that I remember her saying “if you are not happy doing sadhan, you’ll not be after that!” I never thought much about that then. But now, I smile and let the smile stay for sometime and then wait for it to spread throughout myself and then start whatever sadhan I’ve decided to do! Yes, it did bring tremendous change in me. For me that feeling of ‘feeling ood’ was good enough incentive for sadhan. Now, I didn’t look at the results much!

I was more aware during sadhan too! This made me feel light

and energetic. Previously, for me to do sadhan was a boring, laborious and yet compulsive work that needed to be completed and hence was done grudgingly. Not now! Then it was as if I was doing a favour on someone – many times on my Guru, but not now. Now I did it for myself! Then it was part of “to do list agenda”. Now it was an excuse to be with myself. Honestly last bit was Rahul’s not mine. I didn’t experience that yet. Overall, there was a shift in doing sadhan. ‘Doing’ part was same but it was “how it was done” part that had changed and that was the role of my Guru – nay our Guru. And I think that’s where the glaring difference between masters shows up.

“Krishna was and is an epitome of love. He’s taught us how to live our relationships completely and beautifully with love. He showed us by living meaningful relationships” her voice silenced our discussions, arguments and explanations. We were so lost in our discussions that we missed her coming and taking seat. But none of this bothered her wee bit and she had started her class on dot. This was one point that we all admired in her and her classes. It was disciplined. She started class always on time. It was never ‘chalthe hai’ (casual say) for her. She was way disciplined to start her class late. At the same time, her class did not go haphazard. It was structured. I liked it. I liked her punctuality, discipline and everything about it so much so that I couldn’t accept others’ wayward way of taking class. Her voice did not let my thoughts go in that or any direction any longer. It dragged me into the story.

“He was a ‘son’ everyone desires to have. He is an ‘Ideal son’ – no not because of miracles that he performed but because of the way he played this role of his. He was not the ‘Ramudu manchi baludu’ types meaning ‘well behaved types’.

The mischief that he did was more than ten kids put together. Yet, he made his parents proud of him and they were ever grateful to be his parents. If a parent says ‘This child is the one I want in my every life’ then that’s the ultimate compliment one has received from his parents. He didn’t ‘do’ things to please them and ‘get good name’. Because virtue ceases to be one when it is ‘tried and worked on’. Instead his nature itself was so pure and intentions so altruistic that his entire being reflected with ‘goodness’. He was not ‘Good’ because he was ‘God’; on the contrary he became 'God because he was 'good’. This is a principle that we all should aspire to ingest in our personality to get good name. Remember, ‘being good’ is worth any day over ‘good name’. Because the ‘day peoples’ choice, perception changes our ‘good name’ goes for a toss. It does so also when people realize or get to know our ‘real or hidden nature and intention’.

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