On knowing self -Me, My Guru
Contd.....
A man filled
with lust sees object of his desire everywhere and a Buddha sees Buddha in
everyone!
And hence Ravana
saw ‘object of desire’ in Mother Sita. The fault was not in Sita ma. It was in
his eyes and character. Like-wise, Buddha saw ‘a divine soul’ in a highway
dacoit – Angulimaan who went on to become one of his best and Enlightened
disciples. A sadhak can get ‘message from his Guru/divine’ even from a film. I
experienced it. We just had to be tuned to our Guru’s vibrations and they have
their own way to reach and teach us. This I call as ‘play way of method’ of her
teaching.
In similar
situations, I had pitied her so many times for patiently teaching us and
coaxing us to understand ‘the teachings’. Not this time! I didn’t pity her.
Neither was I angry with self. I felt gratitude for all the love that our Guru
exhibited through her teachings. Yes love found its expression through minute
excuses. And what did I give in return - A bland and a routine ‘thankyou maam’
which sounded more mechanical than genuine now even to my ears. I had to live
her words. I had to ‘let go’ off my causes of pain by simply applying her time
tested techniques. I by living a life of abundance gave her one of the best
gifts.
She said ‘don’t
argue, defend or justify’. Now I saw it. We didn’t
let go because we had our
reasons to hold on to our hurts. Yes, the other did hurt and insult us. They
don’t understand us. We justify our emotions of pain, hurt by their actions. It
wasnt’ as if ‘she didn’t understand’. She did and hence gave this simple
technique “don’t justify or defend’. If I didn’t justify my emotions then the
talk of him (the one who hurt) didn’t arise and then how could I go on in this ‘pain
trip?”. She wanted just that. She wanted us to get down that train that took us
to ‘hell of pain and suffering’. And all I need to do was ‘stop defending and
justifying’.
Once this
continuous chatter of others being wrong and us being right stops we are in a
space of silence that reflects our Nature to us! That’s what was our question “how
do I know and understand self?” she had bundled all our issues under one head
and gave a simple panacea of tip “Stop defending and justifying” and thereby ‘letting
go’ and automatically entering the ‘Me Zone’.
God – it was so
obvious and yet I had wasted all these years. Even if I had simply followed her
‘do’s and don’ts’ it could’ve brought me here long back!
Well. Better late
than never!
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