If you are reading the links i've given you, then please take little more pains and read the posts before and after the ones that i 've given link to too....sometimes, the answer is continued in the continuing posts too....

On swadharma and destiny....

On clarity of thought, Dharma and swadharma, when to fight for self respect and when to surrender etc......

Further to a query asked dt. may 25th, i am giving previous links which would answer few of the questions asked...read them and let me know which of the questions have been answered and which one need further clarification....i'll do the needful....if others remember any other posts related to these questions please give the link or the date....

http://kantipadam.blogspot.in/search?q=parikshit

http://kantipadam.blogspot.in/search?q=karma

http://kantipadam.blogspot.in/search?q=balanced

http://kantipadam.blogspot.in/search?q=quitting

http://kantipadam.blogspot.in/search?q=swadharma


http://kantipadam.blogspot.in/search?q=destiny


http://kantipadam.blogspot.in/search?q=character

Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

Wow! That was something. It was not something new but still it sounded new to me – may be because I’ve just heard about it and never applied it. I had my ‘but’s’ to evade practising healing them. Well, who was to blame for that? Who lost on precious time? And my friends went past me – only by virtue of their sadhan and applying all that our Guru said. What’s the purpose of asking questions if we want answers as per

our desire? We want to hear and read what we want to hear. We don’t listen to what she has to say. That’s why even our questions are answers. We end up demanding her to answer our questions. Is it our stupidity or are we so adamant not to hear what is told? Or is it that our pain gives us the ‘joy’ of suffering which we are never ready to trade against anything else – not even ‘peace of mind’?

“Still not clear?” asked Rahul. Few of them said ‘yes’.

‘We having desire is not a problem. But when we condition our expectations to our desire and say ‘only if it happens this way I’ll be happy’ is the cause of our pain and suffering.  And then he went to explain various expectations and conditions that we lay with marriage – for us ti was boringly repetitive. Only one thing can be capsule of all this explanation “Basis of expectations and conditions is the reason for pain and not person or the desire. We need to change our attitude to be happy. Otherwise, with

whomsoever we are, we are going to be ‘only sad and crying’ not because of situations, but because of who we are. Happiness is not the by-product of any situation. It is the state of being and that meant ‘going within’ and changing our ‘software’ of thoughts. Only and only this would ensure happiness in our lives and nothing else! Till then, we’ll have problems always and remain as ‘problem’ for others in our life!

That’s for sure! So, need to change for our own sweet sake.......no alternative way there..........

Concluded..........

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

It was at this point that our Guruji joined us. She started her

explanation “You are where you are because of who you are! Once a saint went to palace to meet the king but was stopped at palace gates by palace guards. He pleaded and had to wait quite some time before they were convinced and went in to intimate his arrival to the supervisor. He was busy in his daily duties and took his time to enquire his details and then took him to the Minister. To both the guard and the supervisor the saint said “You are where you are because of who you are”. Hearing about the yogi, Minister asked him to be brought to his presence immediately and duly enquired about him. To him saint said “You are where you are because of who you are”. The minister intimatd about him to the king and the king leaving all his work came rushing to meet the saint and to him again saint said “You are where you are because of who you are”.”  Having said this story she left.

We got our chance to discuss and we realized that each person was

in the ‘post’ as deserved by his attitude.   We ‘draw’ people, situations and blessings depending on who we were, not on what we wanted. Deserve and then desire and it’ll be yours! Else you need to heal enough to increase your worthiness enough to become eligible to receive the object of your desire. And before that you’ll meet people and situations depending upon what you have created earlier with what you are! So, face it with equipoise to heal that karma! Because if we crib again as we face these situations we’ll re-create them again in future.

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

“Not only that, Guruji always says that we attract people depending upon the energy that we generate. If there is hardly love within me and if I am filled with only insecurity, greed, anger, pain, self-pity or any or all of such attitudes what is the chance of attracting sensible people in my life?  So, instead of looking at these people let me use them to look within and heal myself”.

“You may have such issues but I don’t have any. I am good, it’s just my m-i-l who is bad” shouted Pallavi. But my friends didn’t lose their cool.

“Even then, use her to develop ‘peace’ in the middle of tense moment.

“What nonsense is that?” asked Pallavi very irritated.

“Guruji always says that he only is greatest who can maintain his cool both among his friends and foe alike, who is same during praise or taunt, who is happy both in rags and in riches. So, let’s use this people to develop that state of being ‘balanced’ at all times. They are our best ‘buddies’ if we know how to use them correctly”.

This was both amusing and a bit confusing at a time. But, it certainly was challenging. There was something in his tone that made us want to implement it immediately. Infact, I had a strong urge to go in search of people who teased my patience and practice it on them, wow! That would be ‘freedom’ worth working for! If my friends can work on it so can i!

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

“You are killing the joy of marriage or job or any desire that we have. Yo mean to say that we have to ever be in pain and suffering?”

“That’s your choice! I, Rahul, Aziz are happy inspite of being married and our challenging jobs. Not because our spouses are ‘perfect’ or our jobs are very easy. No. But because, we didn’t expect them to be ‘perfect’ in the first place. Like-wise, we’ll end up having relatives from in-laws side just as crazy, diverse and specimens as in our family. Just as we deal or have been dealing with our relatives since birth, we’ve learnt to deal with these new set of relatives too! Some (especially those who are closest) we’ve done emotional healing and mended our relationships too. Few others we’ve developed indifferent attitude – especially those whom we meet once in a while types and move on. And we do reiki regularly to give us clarity as to how to deal with different people differently. Because at the end of the day, the same ‘Narayan’ is in him as much as ‘He’ is in me. We remember that more often when dealing with others”.

“True, true, we say “Lord, why are you trying to push me into Maya by behaving in such mean way” and then we are at peace”.

Even I found it so profound. These were my friends. I didn’t know that they were dealing in such a manner. Yes, this was what was told to all of us in the class. But, we listened, complemented on it and forgot about it. But these noble souls were putting it into action.  No doubt, many times I felt they have journeyed far beyond my point. I envied them for it. But what they did was something which even I could’ve done but choose to ignore. And yet I directed my envy onto them. Was that fair? But since when was ‘fair game’ part of our emotions and their related ‘logic’?

“People’ll be difficult in life in every walk of life until we learn to win them over with love. When Jesus, Krishna, Gandhi and Vivekananda have people talking nonsense about them, plotting against them, hating them and even killing them, you and I are nothing”.

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

“Then what can we desire for?”

“Anything and everything just not put the burden of your happiness on its happening and on it”

“mmm, you’ve lost us....”

“Well. When we have a desire say of ‘getting married, we assume it to be a destination of ‘marriage’. We think our troubles end with marriage and we’ll be happy ever after Marriage, when in actuality that is not the case”.

“Yes, we get mother-in-law free with marriage!” added someone and everyone laughed.

“

See, just exactly my point. We consider all that comes with marriage as ‘problems’ and ‘parasites’. We don’t see it as a package. We eat burgers and pizzas and all that which takes us to develop BP, sugar or cholesterol. Yet we eat and when we are diagnosed with these diseases we don’t fight with people who sold these food items to us. We don’t link both though they are inter-connected. We treat disease separately and in most cases still holding on to our ‘wrong’ food habits”.

“What’s the point?” asked someone with a bit of irritation.

“I was coming to it but your patience gave way. Well, just as we treat these diseases separately, we should treat every issue that comes in our life separately. For example, if there is a relationship problem or some other problem that comes up after marriage, then don’t crib saying “see inspite of getting marriage after doing Reiki I am still suffering. Don’t link an event with the issues that come later to it. As long as we have to live with people we’ll have difference of opinion. I mean, who doesn’t? That doesn’t mean we leave marriage or job or start complaining that my marriage or job is not giving me happiness. Every event in life comes with a package. Marriage and job are just ‘stations’ of life. They are never the destination of happiness. From there, your next journey starts and it will certainly have its ups and down. Only singing sweet songs happens only in bollywood – not in real life”.

“You are killing the joy of marriage or job or any desire that we have. Yo mean to say that we have to ever be in pain and suffering?”

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

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Ask and it shall be given - Me, My Guru

“No. I don’t think he means ‘exactly’ like that. It’s something like my wish is ‘I want to be married’ and then I enter into multiple new relationships because of my marriage and few of which would be hurtful. So that way, I got these ‘relatives’ thanks to my ‘desire’ or ‘intent’prayer’ and I suffer because of my prayer being listened to”.

“Marriage will only get problems – whether we pray for it or not....”

Everyone laughed making more jokes on it.

“It’s not about marriage. It is just an example. Take it as ‘I want a promotion’ and then added responsibility, extended working hours, family being angry because of that etc. Your health suffering because of extra stress etc...”

“That way we’ll end up not asking or desiring anything because as per your explanation every desire will give only pain in our lives”.

“No. Not just pain! I meant because reason of your pleasure is also the cause of your pain. Only that which gives you pleasure has the capacity to give you pain. Remember our Guru stating it so often. So I said that!”

“Then what can we desire for?”

“Anything and everything just not put the burden of your happiness on its happening and on it”

“mmm, you’ve lost us....”

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pray

Ask and it shall be given! - Me, My Guru

Ask and it shall be given! 

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But we sat and put our heads to understand what that story had to offer to us. Each gave his insight – which most of it was right but only partly. We understood what we ought to only when we put all our insights in one place.

(I didn’t bother on who said what and just noted down the conversation)

“I think it means we need to trust His ability to forgive us and seek it more than being guilty of our sins”

“...His ability to forgive?”

“O.k. His unconditional love for all !”

“Our Guru once said that even God may forgive us for our sins but our Central Nervous System doesn’t. How do I relate it here?”

“by forgiving ourselves...”

“...easier said than done....”

“What if I don’t even realize or agree that what I did was wrong in the first place?”

“Then there is no question of healing at all. All this talk and discussion becomes redundant in such cases. We are looking at cases where the person knows his sins and is regretting having made it”.

“Then forgive self and then seek forgiveness from the person who’s been hurt and also not to repeat it. All this exercise goes down the drain if the act is repetitive”

“The moment we realize that we’ve sinned, it is not complete acceptance if it doesn’t make me humble enough not to count others sins and judge them”

“Well said, bravo!”

“May be it means much more than sin and forgiveness? It means “Ask and it shall be given”. Maybe, the basis of our very pain and suffering is our asking for it”

“Who would pray for pains and suffering?”

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Ask and it shall be given! 

“So you think I am praying wrong. If I say ‘forgive me’. I’ll receive abundance in my life and my problems will vanish” demanded Pallavi. She was always so. Her voice was sweet but her words were insulting and everyone could see greed, selfishness ad envy oozing out of her word!

“It’s not your prayer that is wrong but your intentions and attitude” mumbled Rahul. We in our group knew that and we laughed in hushed voices.

“No, no don’t get your intentions to me. Check it for yourself. Ask what you desire. And remember you’ll receive as per your desire, worthiness and attitude. That’s all!” so saying our Guru left indoors. She seemed to get a phone call.

This was so common. The moment she said anything about ‘intention’ everyone scribbled their ‘lists’ and gave it to her. Their selfishness no longer surprised us, but, it irritated us a lot. Why we always take our ‘Guru’ to be our ‘on the call’ secretary/jinn of Alauddin/cleaner (of our karma) and also a punch bag to receive our brick-bats as per our moods? This was something very unforgiving on our part and yet all did it – all because they called her ‘Guruji’. People should sincerely check the ‘definition of Guru as per their dictionary’ by going into silence.

But we sat and put our heads to understand what that story had to offer to us. Each gave his insight – which most of it was right but only partly. We understood what we ought to only when we put all our insights in one place.

contd...... 

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Ask and it shall be given – Me, My guru

Ask and it shall be given – Me, My guru

“Why every body received differently though all were sadhaks?”

This was the question that bothered most of us but the question kept being pushed by other questions always. Today seemed to be the day of this question.  Pallavi asked this question with irritation and half accusing our Guru today even before start of the class. Her further complaint was “Everyone is fine when I am suffering inspite of being in sadhan as much as others”. We knew that she hardly was ‘in’ sadhan. She talked about sadhan more than doing it. Yet, when it came to receiving she would complain inspite of everything she received. We didn’t even consider her question worth looking at, leave alone answering. But Guru being herself sincerely replied “In a certain temple town lived a Saint who would go around the town daily at the appointed time. He would notice all. At one gate of the temple, (Old temples in India constructed long back had four gates and city developed around these temples and hence these cities are called ‘Ksethras’ in Sanskrit and even in their names. It means ‘field’. As these temple cities developed around the temples, they became the ‘field’ – energy field, energy being that of the temple. So, temples are called ‘punya ksethra’ meaning ‘pure field’). He saw a beggar hale and healthy. This beggar was very lean few months ago when he had first come to this village.

On the other gate he found a beggar who was hale and healthy becoming weak, lean and sick as days passed. This intrigued the Saint and he went up to the beggars and asked “What is your prayer?”. The second beggar said “Lord, exhaust all my sins in this very birth”. The first beggar replied “Lord, forgive me for all my sins”. The Saint took pity on the second beggar and said “Don’t you think the Lord is loving enough to forgive you off your sins. Seek his forgiveness instead of exhausting your sins”. The beggar followed Saint’s advice and  within few months became hale and healthy. The Lord gives what we seek”. She looked at us all as she completed the story.

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(read the above post in completley)

Your enemy!

Happiness is a Choice!

Happiness!

Cause of pain!

On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

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On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

But my writing has stood by me like an old good sensible friend. I’ve always learnt and enjoyed from what I had written. Be it about my experience or about chaos called ‘me’. Either way, my writing has surprised me more than once. Whenever I’ve looked at old writings, the stories, examples and the confusion – just about everything seemed so profound. Sometimes, I found out that I was the same me – then and now. Few times I was amazed to observe the journey that I’ve completed and the distance that I’ve travelled during all these years. When I looked at life with present day issues, I always felt “Oh God! Why is my life a mess? Why can’t I ever be happy? Why doesn’t things work out like in others’ life for me? But if at the same time if I go down memory

lane thanks to my writing, then I found out how many times Reiki had come to my aid. How my life has changed! Then it was time for ‘gratitude’ instead of cribbing and complaining. I would revisit so many miraculous events in my life which even I had forgotten. Our Guru usually reminded us to our ‘miracles’. We would be surprised. How does she remember each of our experience, doubts and the answers she had given us? But with my writing I always revisited an experience, understanding or an emotion like confusion/feaqr that I had long forgotten. I’ve understood one thing thanks to this writing; we

cannot rely on our memory much. We forgot most of what was useful or sensible to us. The painful parts we always certainly remembered! Her simple words ‘do this’ always had immense sense in it. We found it out if and when we followed her instruction – even if just blindly. That was the best part of being ‘My Guru’s’ disciple. We didn’t have to believe her or her words. Even blindly following her words gave results. Belief

followed later and she never seemed to be worried about that much – as much as she was insisting on following the technique regularly. This writing really gave me this understanding. Yet I didn’t extend it to other areas of sadhan as regularly as I did writing. I smiled at myself. We all stuck to one or two of the techniques and came to same conclusion and yet never put sincere effort to follow her words to T – ever! If simply following one technique could give such results, what would and how would out lives shape up if only we followed all her words! If for sure would’ve been ‘enlightened like in previous birth itself!’.

Let people have their fun by laughing at me. I’ll walk my path and belief stemmed from my experience will guide me to yonder shores of absolute freedom and thereby abundance.....

Some horn of the passing vehicle brought me back to now and I looked at watch. Time to go home! I walked towards my vehicle. Other couples were oblivious to their surroundings. This water body was same for them and me and yet we both received what we desired on its shores. Our intent and desire decides what we receive – not the place, time or situation! Wow, I was glad with this revelation. Water really had its way of enlightening people, so to say and I had my bout of that enlightenment just now.....

Concluded...........

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On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

After completion of my work if I had time, I always ended up being at Tank-bund (it’s a small water body, a famous landmark in Hyderabad City). In between my hectic schedules, I always found time (say even 10mts at times to spend at Tank-bund if I was to cross it. So many times hopping from one appointment to another I had stopped at Tank Bund just to enjoy sunset. This place took me to a different zone. Today I had completed my work early and could go early by 2hrs. No point going home so soon. The routine could wait. What with busy life-style, I hardly get time to stand and stare! So, I gave myself 1/2an hour or so at TankBund. I relished tea served by a small boy selling it to all by-standers there. Pity this place was so full of only ‘lovebirds’. Whenever I had stood here with my friend even if only for 10mts I would feel uncomfortable! Now I had grown indifferent to such feelings. These people no longer existed in my mind space. I was alone with the waters and the cold wind that played with my hair. This difference I credited to my diary writing. Many times, my family and friends had made fun of my writing. But I continued. This was one exercise I did sincerely since the day I met our Guru.

In the first class, she had said “Jot down your journey in a diary. Few years down the line you’ll be amazed at the journey you’ve made and experience you’ve had!” that was the only thing I picked from that class. She told lots of things but I found this easiest to do. Pranayam, meditation and reiki were far boring and hard tasks for me to do. But writing seemed easy, fun had it gave me a sense of being in ‘sadhan’. Even today I hardly meditated. That was only in ‘her’ presence.

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

I had let go off the person but not the relationship. I saw that clearly today that’s why when people question me about those relationships I defend my actions and feel bad about it. Why should I defend myself? It hurt to be with such persons and I realized ‘my love for self’ and hence let go off them. Yes. That’s it from today. I wouldn’t explain why I did what I did. They didn’t and don’t answer as to why they never tried to better our relationships. If I had or our relationship had meant anything to them, was it not their responsible too to make an effort to salvage it? They didn’t. And it

says it all! Till date I was carrying the guilt of broken relationship but now I am letting go off that too! Now I’ve moved on in real sense! No more mean people in my life. No need for abusive relationship in my life. If I don’t get someone who would respect me, then I would rather be alone with head held high than be with tens of them always cribbing, envious and manipulating in my life.

I saw the whole picture clearly today!

God bless the soul who wrote her ‘journey’ and God bless our Guru for conducting such classes where people found their inner voice and a place to express themselves openly without having a fear of being judged for being themselves.

She was giving – always! It was just us who validated it or realized it few times. Other times our ego and ignorance clouded our judgement.

I felt lot lighter today!

I didn’t feel lonely any more. I had befriended solitude. And yes I

had more time to do things that gave me joy than have to spend with those who gave out only negativity. Yes, I am happy with my life. I am glad things worked out this way. Even I couldn’t have planned it so well for myself. But my sadhan forced Reiki to shape my life so and God am I glad!!!

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

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It was simple yet was profound. I still didn’t know who had written it. I asked others in the class. No one owned it. Then Rahul said “Yesterday’s class had some introspection exercises. Maybe it belonged to someone from that class. Leave it near Guruji’s seat”.

I nodded my head and wanted to. But who would come for this sheet of paper? Where would our Guruji go around asking people as to whose it was? Wouldn’t it be an extra burden on her? With all these thoughts, I pocketed it. By then all in the class had read it. Few of them seconded what was written and gave their own stories to back it and others applied it to parts and parcels in their lives.

I kept those papers. I had left behind few of my long standing relationship behind and at times felt as if I was being very selfish or more lonely person. But now, I saw the entire scene differently. Those whom I left were those who were mean and abusive all through to me. I was the only one contributing positive things in those relationships. They were takers and over and above were blatantly insulting me and envious of me. Yes sadhan did give me clarity in letting go off relationships that were

parasitical in nature. They never for once tried to patch up or make an effort to talk about what went wrong. Infact, they never felt they were wrong in any way in the first place. When I didn’t mean anything in their life, it’s senseless to hold on to such relationships. Its better to be standing alone than be with a person who doesn’t stand by you, believe in you or your dreams, is ever ready to put you down and only using you for his benefit.

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives Me, My Guru

Reiki healing and its effect on our lives

Me, My Guru

We were all having lunch in our Guru’s place when I saw couple of sheets of paper lying on the floor. It took it and looked through them to see if I could find its owner. No name or other clue to tell whose it was. I started reading expecting to find the clue in that written word.

“

When I first met our Guruji and had asked her ‘how would Reiki help me?’ she simply smiled and said “It’ll change your world beyond your expectations”. That time I didn’t expect even remotely to live a life that I am doing now. She was right. She knew it then. I knew that she – our Guru was right only now! Yes, today as I go through my life I see the sea change that Reiki has brought about in my life.

Financially I am way ahead of my expectations. I don’t and never compare with others. I always see my growth only from a certain point of time in my life. I see and gauge my growth as ‘where I was then’ and ‘where I am NOW’. That’s all! So, that way my growth is tremendous.

I’ve changed. As a person I’ve changed in areas which I never

thought I would. My world has changed – for good! I used to consider ‘so many people’ part of my life. Now they no longer matter to me and are not part of my world any more!  I didn’t do anything apart from being in regular sadhan. Reiki just removed all such of people and relationships that were envious of me, selfish, abusive towards me as effortlessly as one takes out a fly from milk. I didn’t realize it then. I was too busily involved with life. But now when I look back, what with the crowd gone down to just handful people in my life, I see the big picture. I noticed Reiki’s role in my role in pushing those ‘parasitical relationships’ away from my life. Sometimes I used to wonder if I’ve changed to be a more lonely person, but no, now I understand that I am more

peaceful, working or rather not slogging away my bones for those who didn’t validate it one bit, people who took everything I did for granted. They were just using me. It was I who was in love with them. They never appreciated it. Thankfully, I today have outgrown my love for them. All thanks to Reiki. Just be in sadhan and see Reiki transform your priorities and your life for better. You don’t have to leave anything or anyone. Those and that which are harmful would automatically go out of your life. Trust Reiki to break you free from your bondages!”

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on Knowing self - Me, My Guru

On knowing self - Me, My Guru

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My family’s call for lunch! I opened my eyes. Did I not just start to clean my desk? I looked at the watch. It was well past 1pm. I put back all those papers from where I took them. After lunch I had to have my afternoon siesta. On holidays if I was at home, well it was mandatory. So I was done for the day here! My family would make fun of me for being expert in not doing anything worth the name inspite of my ‘whole day’s plan’. This happened almost everytime. But then, how could I make them see what I had gained. I didn’t and couldn’t clear the clutter on my writing desk but my day wasn’t wasted. Infact it was more than useful, productive and well spent than they could understand I had expected. Yes, things didn’t go the way I had envisaged. But it went much better. ‘Whatever happens, happens for good’ was true here 100%. I had uncluttered my mental space. I found a path to walk, a technique which was easy and user-friendly by way of application. I mean, I could use it as I went along with my routine. I didn’t have to take time to practise. My ‘Karma bhoomi’ itself became a ‘Dhyaana bhoomi’. I could get – no be free through my work as I had to apply it during my work!!!

I smiled and thanked her for ‘making our journey’ so effortless and easy. And I got up to eat as I was very hungry – both for food and to put my knowledge into practise.......

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On knowing self -Me, My Guru

On knowing self -Me, My Guru

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A man filled with lust sees object of his desire everywhere and a Buddha sees Buddha in everyone!

And hence Ravana saw ‘object of desire’ in Mother Sita. The fault was not in Sita ma. It was in his eyes and character. Like-wise, Buddha saw ‘a divine soul’ in a highway dacoit – Angulimaan who went on to become one of his best and Enlightened disciples. A sadhak can get ‘message from his Guru/divine’ even from a film. I experienced it. We just had to be tuned to our Guru’s vibrations and they have their own way to reach and teach us. This I call as ‘play way of method’ of her teaching.  

In similar situations, I had pitied her so many times for patiently teaching us and coaxing us to understand ‘the teachings’. Not this time! I didn’t pity her. Neither was I angry with self. I felt gratitude for all the love that our Guru exhibited through her teachings. Yes love found its expression through minute excuses. And what did I give in return - A bland and a routine ‘thankyou maam’ which sounded more mechanical than genuine now even to my ears. I had to live her words. I had to ‘let go’ off my causes of pain by simply applying her time tested techniques. I by living a life of abundance gave her one of the best gifts.

She said ‘don’t argue, defend or justify’. Now I saw it. We didn’t

let go because we had our reasons to hold on to our hurts. Yes, the other did hurt and insult us. They don’t understand us. We justify our emotions of pain, hurt by their actions. It wasnt’ as if ‘she didn’t understand’. She did and hence gave this simple technique “don’t justify or defend’. If I didn’t justify my emotions then the talk of him (the one who hurt) didn’t arise and then how could I go on in this ‘pain trip?”. She wanted just that. She wanted us to get down that train that took us to ‘hell of pain and suffering’. And all I need to do was ‘stop defending and justifying’.

Once this continuous chatter of others being wrong and us being right stops we are in a space of silence that reflects our Nature to us! That’s what was our question “how do I know and understand self?” she had bundled all our issues under one head and gave a simple panacea of tip “Stop defending and justifying” and thereby ‘letting go’ and automatically entering the ‘Me Zone’.

God – it was so obvious and yet I had wasted all these years. Even if I had simply followed her ‘do’s and don’ts’ it could’ve brought me here long back!

Well. Better late than never!

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on knowing self - me , my Guru

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'‘Let go’ – This should be key word while I suffer. Period! No arguments, no ifs and no but’s!”

I felt the pain in my hand and realized I was still holding the empty tea cup. I put it down. The pain brought me to ‘NOW’! If an empty cup can give me ‘that pain’ how much more should carrying all those hurts, pain etc should be giving me?

Seven years back I had understood the importance of ‘let go’ and yet I was where I was. What is the benefit of understanding if I didn’t apply it in my life?

I hadn’t changed in all these years and ‘NO’ it isn’t good to remain so! Change is essential and symbol of life and growth. If I

had changed for better, then the luggage I was carrying of pain wouldn’t be there. Only if I ‘let go’ can I actually ‘move on’. I closed my eyes and took deep breath. Just couple of days ago she had said “Don’t justify, defend or explain your actions’. Then I didn’t get it. I was excited about applying little realizing its implication. Now I get it. She meant ‘Let go’’. When words and actions of our ‘so called’ near and dear ones hurt us, ‘let go’ off their words. No point holding on to their words which only drags us more deep into the pit of ‘hurt, pain and suffering’ and yes that was the death of our happiness, peace, sense of self-worth in short ourselves. What is it worthy of? However real and painful were the words and acts, to save self I had to ‘let go’ like that ‘grail’.

With eyes closed I went through the scene mentally. Our Guru had often said “Depending on our intent and desire we received what we were looking for from every nook and corner”.  Her one more famous quote was ‘You are what you read’. Today I saw that. How many of us connected films with spirituality? Certainly not me! And ‘she’ has taught me so beautifully through that English film.

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