Contd.....
Me, My Guru – On attachments, faith and commitments....
She had said “let go” off your attitudes so many times...she had said ‘drop’
so times and yet....This time both those words seem to make sense. I saw what
she was trying to tell all these years. Maybe, it was me all along who didn’t
want to let go of the rope called ‘my attitudes’ and cited various reasons for
that like ‘but you don’t know how much they ill-treated me’, ‘you don’t
understand’ etc. Yes, the incident happened once and let it become mammoth size
by replaying it
umpteen times in this little brain of mine. No doubt, I felt my
brain would shatter if I didn’t do anything about people who were causing me
this pain when in fact I was the one ‘wedded to them’ day in and day out! Surprisingly
that applied to people whom I had to deal with on day-to-day basis too. Let’s
say they hurt, torture or instigate me on daily basis. If I knew not to count
the times they did or do this, then it was easy to deal with such a situation. But
I connected various dots of such incidents and spelled it as ‘He does that always!’ or
‘everyone
does that to me’. The moment ‘group words’ like always,
everyone etc are used the pain becomes eternal. I seem to be fighting
with everyone and that frustration drives me crazy. Wow! We figured this out as
we discussed this among ourselves. It shut us up for quite some time. This was huge.
It would take quite a long to let all this sink in. We then had to internalize
all this to be able to see its effect on our
psyche, attitude, character and
finally on our Destiny which reflected as ‘Life Situations’. Yes, our Guru was
right when she said “You don’t need an astrologer or a star to chalk out your
fate. Just take a look at your life and the situations in it to tell you who
you are, what your karma was and where your Destiny is taking you or what it
has in store for you”.
We talked other stuff too but who remembers after this wash-out....
Concluded....
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