Cause of pain!

On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

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On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

But my writing has stood by me like an old good sensible friend. I’ve always learnt and enjoyed from what I had written. Be it about my experience or about chaos called ‘me’. Either way, my writing has surprised me more than once. Whenever I’ve looked at old writings, the stories, examples and the confusion – just about everything seemed so profound. Sometimes, I found out that I was the same me – then and now. Few times I was amazed to observe the journey that I’ve completed and the distance that I’ve travelled during all these years. When I looked at life with present day issues, I always felt “Oh God! Why is my life a mess? Why can’t I ever be happy? Why doesn’t things work out like in others’ life for me? But if at the same time if I go down memory

lane thanks to my writing, then I found out how many times Reiki had come to my aid. How my life has changed! Then it was time for ‘gratitude’ instead of cribbing and complaining. I would revisit so many miraculous events in my life which even I had forgotten. Our Guru usually reminded us to our ‘miracles’. We would be surprised. How does she remember each of our experience, doubts and the answers she had given us? But with my writing I always revisited an experience, understanding or an emotion like confusion/feaqr that I had long forgotten. I’ve understood one thing thanks to this writing; we

cannot rely on our memory much. We forgot most of what was useful or sensible to us. The painful parts we always certainly remembered! Her simple words ‘do this’ always had immense sense in it. We found it out if and when we followed her instruction – even if just blindly. That was the best part of being ‘My Guru’s’ disciple. We didn’t have to believe her or her words. Even blindly following her words gave results. Belief

followed later and she never seemed to be worried about that much – as much as she was insisting on following the technique regularly. This writing really gave me this understanding. Yet I didn’t extend it to other areas of sadhan as regularly as I did writing. I smiled at myself. We all stuck to one or two of the techniques and came to same conclusion and yet never put sincere effort to follow her words to T – ever! If simply following one technique could give such results, what would and how would out lives shape up if only we followed all her words! If for sure would’ve been ‘enlightened like in previous birth itself!’.

Let people have their fun by laughing at me. I’ll walk my path and belief stemmed from my experience will guide me to yonder shores of absolute freedom and thereby abundance.....

Some horn of the passing vehicle brought me back to now and I looked at watch. Time to go home! I walked towards my vehicle. Other couples were oblivious to their surroundings. This water body was same for them and me and yet we both received what we desired on its shores. Our intent and desire decides what we receive – not the place, time or situation! Wow, I was glad with this revelation. Water really had its way of enlightening people, so to say and I had my bout of that enlightenment just now.....

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On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

On writing Diary – Me, My Guru

After completion of my work if I had time, I always ended up being at Tank-bund (it’s a small water body, a famous landmark in Hyderabad City). In between my hectic schedules, I always found time (say even 10mts at times to spend at Tank-bund if I was to cross it. So many times hopping from one appointment to another I had stopped at Tank Bund just to enjoy sunset. This place took me to a different zone. Today I had completed my work early and could go early by 2hrs. No point going home so soon. The routine could wait. What with busy life-style, I hardly get time to stand and stare! So, I gave myself 1/2an hour or so at TankBund. I relished tea served by a small boy selling it to all by-standers there. Pity this place was so full of only ‘lovebirds’. Whenever I had stood here with my friend even if only for 10mts I would feel uncomfortable! Now I had grown indifferent to such feelings. These people no longer existed in my mind space. I was alone with the waters and the cold wind that played with my hair. This difference I credited to my diary writing. Many times, my family and friends had made fun of my writing. But I continued. This was one exercise I did sincerely since the day I met our Guru.

In the first class, she had said “Jot down your journey in a diary. Few years down the line you’ll be amazed at the journey you’ve made and experience you’ve had!” that was the only thing I picked from that class. She told lots of things but I found this easiest to do. Pranayam, meditation and reiki were far boring and hard tasks for me to do. But writing seemed easy, fun had it gave me a sense of being in ‘sadhan’. Even today I hardly meditated. That was only in ‘her’ presence.

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

I had let go off the person but not the relationship. I saw that clearly today that’s why when people question me about those relationships I defend my actions and feel bad about it. Why should I defend myself? It hurt to be with such persons and I realized ‘my love for self’ and hence let go off them. Yes. That’s it from today. I wouldn’t explain why I did what I did. They didn’t and don’t answer as to why they never tried to better our relationships. If I had or our relationship had meant anything to them, was it not their responsible too to make an effort to salvage it? They didn’t. And it

says it all! Till date I was carrying the guilt of broken relationship but now I am letting go off that too! Now I’ve moved on in real sense! No more mean people in my life. No need for abusive relationship in my life. If I don’t get someone who would respect me, then I would rather be alone with head held high than be with tens of them always cribbing, envious and manipulating in my life.

I saw the whole picture clearly today!

God bless the soul who wrote her ‘journey’ and God bless our Guru for conducting such classes where people found their inner voice and a place to express themselves openly without having a fear of being judged for being themselves.

She was giving – always! It was just us who validated it or realized it few times. Other times our ego and ignorance clouded our judgement.

I felt lot lighter today!

I didn’t feel lonely any more. I had befriended solitude. And yes I

had more time to do things that gave me joy than have to spend with those who gave out only negativity. Yes, I am happy with my life. I am glad things worked out this way. Even I couldn’t have planned it so well for myself. But my sadhan forced Reiki to shape my life so and God am I glad!!!

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

Reiki healing and its effect on our lives - Me, My Guru

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It was simple yet was profound. I still didn’t know who had written it. I asked others in the class. No one owned it. Then Rahul said “Yesterday’s class had some introspection exercises. Maybe it belonged to someone from that class. Leave it near Guruji’s seat”.

I nodded my head and wanted to. But who would come for this sheet of paper? Where would our Guruji go around asking people as to whose it was? Wouldn’t it be an extra burden on her? With all these thoughts, I pocketed it. By then all in the class had read it. Few of them seconded what was written and gave their own stories to back it and others applied it to parts and parcels in their lives.

I kept those papers. I had left behind few of my long standing relationship behind and at times felt as if I was being very selfish or more lonely person. But now, I saw the entire scene differently. Those whom I left were those who were mean and abusive all through to me. I was the only one contributing positive things in those relationships. They were takers and over and above were blatantly insulting me and envious of me. Yes sadhan did give me clarity in letting go off relationships that were

parasitical in nature. They never for once tried to patch up or make an effort to talk about what went wrong. Infact, they never felt they were wrong in any way in the first place. When I didn’t mean anything in their life, it’s senseless to hold on to such relationships. Its better to be standing alone than be with a person who doesn’t stand by you, believe in you or your dreams, is ever ready to put you down and only using you for his benefit.

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Reiki healing and its effect on our lives Me, My Guru

Reiki healing and its effect on our lives

Me, My Guru

We were all having lunch in our Guru’s place when I saw couple of sheets of paper lying on the floor. It took it and looked through them to see if I could find its owner. No name or other clue to tell whose it was. I started reading expecting to find the clue in that written word.

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When I first met our Guruji and had asked her ‘how would Reiki help me?’ she simply smiled and said “It’ll change your world beyond your expectations”. That time I didn’t expect even remotely to live a life that I am doing now. She was right. She knew it then. I knew that she – our Guru was right only now! Yes, today as I go through my life I see the sea change that Reiki has brought about in my life.

Financially I am way ahead of my expectations. I don’t and never compare with others. I always see my growth only from a certain point of time in my life. I see and gauge my growth as ‘where I was then’ and ‘where I am NOW’. That’s all! So, that way my growth is tremendous.

I’ve changed. As a person I’ve changed in areas which I never

thought I would. My world has changed – for good! I used to consider ‘so many people’ part of my life. Now they no longer matter to me and are not part of my world any more!  I didn’t do anything apart from being in regular sadhan. Reiki just removed all such of people and relationships that were envious of me, selfish, abusive towards me as effortlessly as one takes out a fly from milk. I didn’t realize it then. I was too busily involved with life. But now when I look back, what with the crowd gone down to just handful people in my life, I see the big picture. I noticed Reiki’s role in my role in pushing those ‘parasitical relationships’ away from my life. Sometimes I used to wonder if I’ve changed to be a more lonely person, but no, now I understand that I am more

peaceful, working or rather not slogging away my bones for those who didn’t validate it one bit, people who took everything I did for granted. They were just using me. It was I who was in love with them. They never appreciated it. Thankfully, I today have outgrown my love for them. All thanks to Reiki. Just be in sadhan and see Reiki transform your priorities and your life for better. You don’t have to leave anything or anyone. Those and that which are harmful would automatically go out of your life. Trust Reiki to break you free from your bondages!”

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on Knowing self - Me, My Guru

On knowing self - Me, My Guru

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My family’s call for lunch! I opened my eyes. Did I not just start to clean my desk? I looked at the watch. It was well past 1pm. I put back all those papers from where I took them. After lunch I had to have my afternoon siesta. On holidays if I was at home, well it was mandatory. So I was done for the day here! My family would make fun of me for being expert in not doing anything worth the name inspite of my ‘whole day’s plan’. This happened almost everytime. But then, how could I make them see what I had gained. I didn’t and couldn’t clear the clutter on my writing desk but my day wasn’t wasted. Infact it was more than useful, productive and well spent than they could understand I had expected. Yes, things didn’t go the way I had envisaged. But it went much better. ‘Whatever happens, happens for good’ was true here 100%. I had uncluttered my mental space. I found a path to walk, a technique which was easy and user-friendly by way of application. I mean, I could use it as I went along with my routine. I didn’t have to take time to practise. My ‘Karma bhoomi’ itself became a ‘Dhyaana bhoomi’. I could get – no be free through my work as I had to apply it during my work!!!

I smiled and thanked her for ‘making our journey’ so effortless and easy. And I got up to eat as I was very hungry – both for food and to put my knowledge into practise.......

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