...contd....
Next
the cream from this curd is taken and churned to bring out butter.
Similarly,
our mind which is set on divine is churned vigorously by our own ‘samskaras’ to
bring out ‘knowledge’ the butter of sadhan and it is melted to make ‘ghee’
i.e., love or bhakthi that is given as oblation ‘ahuti’ in the ‘homam fire’. It
means the love or bhakthi which is the crux or any sadhan is the ‘one’ that
needs to be offered to the ‘Lord’ or ‘Divine’. He loves that ‘love’ of ours for
him – not the butter in physical form. (That doesn’t mean I am asking you not
to give ‘butter’ as prasadam (offering) to him).
There
were other points written but I didn’t find them engaging then! I was held by
this ‘butter theory’. Now this ‘management tip’ seemed complete and made more
sense. I could actually put lots of other data also together. Ofcourse, most of
the data had been provided by our Guru at various times. Others may get it from
other sources but I received most from ‘her’ and in the last 15-20 years that I
had been around her. I don’t even remember how many ‘precious pearls of knowledge’
I had let scatter that she had so generously distributed to us.
Krishna’s
one more name was ‘Mohan’ which means ‘man ko mohane wala’ or one entices or
robs your heart/mind’ that is he is ‘the one who entices our hearts’. He is the
‘chitchor’ – stealer of heart. All this again lead us to the fact that ‘all he
wanted, desired or expected from us was love’. He, thus stealing butter was
symbolic of saying that all I need is ‘your heart’ or ‘love’.
And
what was I doing?
Taking
care of the physicality of rituals and just didn’t even bother to understand
their meaning, importance and import. I was always saying “...but I go to
temple, do regular pooja, chant so many times...”. I was keeping tab of all
that was material oriented but my heart was enveloped in antagonising,
fault-finding, anger, envy, hatred, complaining, self-pity and everything
except ‘love for Krishna’.
How
many times I thought about him during the day? Once, twice and I would question
her “...but I am good devotee doing pooja regularly and doing charity
too....then why am I suffering so much?” I laughed at my own stupidity. God,
how she had put up with all this nonsense of mine all this years? I owe her a lot just for putting up with me. No doubt,
it is said ‘love of Guru is fathomless – is an ocean’.
...contd....
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