How to repay gratitude?

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Later, most of us were grateful for our education and we had received scholarships too! So we decided to give it back to society. So, we gave books, pencils, pencil boxes, erasers to children in orphanage once every year so their education expenses would come down. That was then that we started paying 50% of fees for 5 students who were doing well in education. Now, we are paying fees to 25 students. We don’t plan to increase the number till we are sure to continue paying for these 25 students till they completed their degrees.

He continued further stating how he was giving blood; he even had donated one of his kidneys to his friend’s wife.

 

Honestly I felt bored of his talk sooner than later.  I felt he was being pompous. Yes, he was advertising how much charity he was doing. He was selling his goodness to us and especially to our Guruji. I didn’t like it. Somewhere down the line, I even got irritated with his small talk. I was fully distracted into “my assessment of his character” when his one line caught my attention and it was then I could understand what he was trying to say. He continued “This whole exercise has only taught me one thing that “Action speaks louder than words”. Yes, now I know if I am really grateful then I would put it in action. Just saying “I thank Guruji, my family” etc in “lines of gratitude” doesn’t mean a thing if I don’t show it. It is not for someone else. It was not even for “punya karma” that I am supposed to earn because of these acts of mine. Infact, I believe that I don’t earn any ‘punya’ because of all that I have already received in life. So, where is the question of future benefit possible in these acts?

 

I realized one more thing. Just because I do all these acts I can’t hold our Guruji, Reiki or God to protect me against any contingency in my life. I am doing them a favour that I say later “but I did so much charity, how come I am facing this problem in life? I understood along that that thought itself was stupid, illogical, irrational and only reflected my wrong sense of looking at ‘Give and take balance sheet of life”.

 

No GOD owed me any thing in return against these acts of mine. How stupid was I !

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