on relationships...

but....this doesn't apply to such of relationships which I  let go because of my 'attitude' and 'behaviour'......

we may convince others with our 'logic' but at the end of the day, the one who loses is us ONLY........

however smart we are in fooling others to believe us, at the end of the day 'the only person whom we have fooled is us!'

lucky few!

and lucky are the 'few' who have such a person/people in their lives.............

Pray for others - Me, My Guru

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Pray for others - Me, My Guru

Our thankyous and sorrys were few and so far in between. Not that our Guru complained to any about it or made us feel bad about it but when we realized this joy of sharing, we knew we had to give her something in return. Each of us made a ‘discipline’ of giving or bringing what we ‘wanted’ to give to our Guru from time to time but one thing that we all gave regularly was ‘Pray for our Guru’ without fail. We followed this

routine for few days and still few empty of giving and it was then we included our Guru’s family and all people who affect her and her life to be healed regularly. It was then that we felt ‘we had finally done it right’. You’ve to do it to believe it. If you are looking for some material gain, don’t even start it. But if you are working on raising yourself as a person, if you are working on your attitude and character then try it. Do it, experience it to know what it does!”.

That entire group seconded it. Thought of ‘Praying for our Guru’ never crossed my mind and I am sure most of us actually found it too distant a thought to be even considering it. But their talk was tempting and we actually had a slight inkling to walk this path. Going to the extent of family and friends was ok, but beyond that and especially our Guru – wow! That was a bit too much. I had to argue with my logical self before working on it so for now it was friends and family................

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Pray for others - Me, my Guru

Pray for others  - Me, my Guru

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Couple of others seconded him. I was hurt. Not because they seconded him but because these people never took notes and yet they remembered her words and not only that they were even working on it regularly. I was just ‘taking down her words’ and reading them but forgot them sooner than later. No doubt, I ended up with same doubts, questions and feelings year after year. There was the cause of difference between them and me. It hit me hard on the face. But I didn’t want to go on any emotional ride as I didn’t wish to miss out on what others had to share today.

“Later I extended my healing prayers to my siblings and other family members” Rahul added.

“And soon friends and colleagues and boss were included” added Ramesh.

“Yes, but still the list was way smaller to what it is today” added Priya.

So, there were so many of them working on it since years and I lost on all those years of healing and growing.

“It expanded to unknown characters, famous personalities whose work we loved, politicians, animals – in short just about everyone and anyone” – Rahul.

“It didn’t stop till it encompassed whole of world in it. Of course this journey took us years to make. And yet we felt something missing. By now the joy of ‘praying for others’ has become our addiction. Now that we tasted the ‘kick’ it gave us, we deliberately increase its dosage. Then one day it hit me that the one person who gave us this joy was not in the list. How could we be so blind to this part?

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Pray for others - Me, my Guru

Pray for others  - Me, my Guru

In one of the sessions, when we found some time, the discussion whirled towards ‘Pray for others’ topic. Each came up with his experience, observations and understanding.

“This exercise takes you through wonderful journey if you work on it”. That was Rahul summarising his journey with this attitude. “As suggested by her, I started with journey by simply ‘Praying for others’. At first, my understanding of that phrase was my immediate family – my spouse and children, because their condition, acts and attitudes affected me in every way. So, I suffered a pain on daily basis with them so I started ‘praying for them’. Like many I felt so ‘good’ for doing it. I thought I had become very magnanimous by doing it for them. It was only years later that I understand that that act of mine was only to make my life easier. It had nothing to do or take me to a level of ‘good person’. With this understanding my circle of ‘praying for others’ increased”.

“Just a minute! You just said ‘years later I understand’ but she had taken this session just few weeks ago” I intervened.

“Oh, did she? Go check your 15years back notes, you’ll find this topic” said Rahul mocking me with a smile.

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On living in the moment – Me, My guru

On living in the moment – Me, My guru

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Our Guru always said “To know that you don’t know is also of knowing”. As per that rule ‘even being Aware of my feelins and emotions’ made me a traveller in that path towards Enlightenment’. Didn’t it?

But just knowing and being Aware didn’t change me a wee bit in all these years. And maybe that’s why she stressed on Sadhan so much. Yes, if only I made conscious effort to change the way I thought and felt and ..........and if only I was in regular sadhan, meditate more often..............

If..........if had so many possibilities and if only I worked atleast and towards few of those possibilities – well, my story could have been written differently...............

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