Just a thought

All the pain in the world is because of 'lack of ability to see!'

THERE ARE NO UNANSWERED PRAYERS! SOMETIMES THE ANSWER ITSELF IS 'NO'!

On Relationships

My Guru says "Do you know the definition of hell? It is Proximity without Intimacy."

Just give it a thought!

Me, My Guru

…contd….

How simple was her answer when I asked her the other day “How do I learn from things around me?”! she simply had said “Look at the leaf”. That day I thought she wasn’t answering my question.  Today, I know she had given me the solution to my query – it took me so long to understand that answer. 

Yes, I had to ‘do’ what she asked me to, to actually experience what I wanted to.  And that ‘doing’ was not a one-time thing.  It had to be done repeatedly to actually get the benefit from it.  Now, I understood why she said “if you want to understand something then read it not once but 30-40 times”.  I now knew why.  Only when we repeatedly did that did we actually understand it layer by layer.  Understanding has different facets and layers to it.  It has to be got by patience and practice.  Hence, whenever I asked her “have I understood it correctly?” she never answered with “yes”.  Instead she would ask me to look further.  I thanked her for not being pushy in teaching and helping me to learn at my pace.  I thanked her for helping me to experience having these insights on my own.  Unless I had these insights on my own, I would simply be parroting it and not saying it as my understanding.  She knew it and hence never gave ‘yes’ or ‘no’ answers……

I think I should thank myself for giving myself such a Guru…..i smiled at this thought!

Me, My Guru

…contd….

How long I had been looking at that leaf I didn’t know? But, now my eye fell on its petiole – the stem that held it to its branch.  It was so thin.  My god! I couldn’t believe that a chord so thin could hold the leaf against wind and rain.  Yet the leaf seemed to have no fear.  Where did it get its confidence from I wondered? Then, it stuck me that trust is not based on the facts and figures.  It doesn’t need proofs. It just is!  Now I understood, what my Guru used to talk about Trust… it doesn’t need proofs.  It is beyond facts. A shiver went down my spine.  A tear rolled down my cheek and a smile rested on my lips when this understanding hit me…..i felt peaceful. I was still!

I left her place even without meeting her.  This feeling was so awesome that I didn’t want to lose it by talking even to her.  I knew she would understand….

Few days passed.  I was sitting in a garden and children were playing some games there.  I was watching them my eyes fell on a tree and then it rested on the leaf. Even without my effort I started  looking at it and after sometime I felt gratitude for the Creator who’s created such a wonderful thing for me! Yes me! For me to breathe fresh air! Such a simple method of cleaning the atmosphere of my breathe and yet so beautiful to look at.  More I looked at it; more I fell in love with HIM.  I thanked the Nature and God for all they were doing for me!

…contd….

Me, My Guru

…contd….

One day I was sitting on a bench under a tree. A leaf came and fell on my lap.  I took it and smiled.  I touched it to feel it and then as if an insight transpired from the leaf into me.  I felt as if it was telling me “as long as I was attached to the tree I lived full of life and happiness.  I never thought of this day when I would fall off.  And when today came, I fell without the pain of having to fall off.  I did not fear falling and losing myself into dust.  I LIVED completely then, now and ever! Can you?”  that set me thinking. Can I? I had to do lots of thinking before answering that question and I got up thinking about the answers….

It’s been long since I met her.  Today as luck would have it she was on her terrace looking at the Banyan Tree.  I went and stood beside her.  I didn’t disturb her today.  I knew what to do.  I joined her.  How long we both were on the terrace I don’t remember – but I remember not having any thoughts that day.  No words to express that joy.  A nothingness that filled me completely and tears of joy rolled down my cheeks.  I didn’t feel anything.  I just was!

Many days later as I was driving I recollected the feeling. I realized it was a state of existence that can’t be reproduced at will and it can’t be worded or expressed in any form.  I thanked my Guru for that feeling. 

…contd….

Me, My Guru

…contd….

Without even turning her head she just said, “Look at the leaf on that Banyan tree”.  I did.  There was nothing to ‘look at it’. I searched for something to be there on or underneath it.  Nothing.  I found it odd.  I looked at it.  She had a faint smile on her lips and she was looking at that leaf.  I looked again at the leaf.  Again nothing!

I found it irritating but I had to follow her instructions and so I stood beside her and started looking at the leaf. Sometime passed.  I looked at her. She was still looking at the leaf.  I sat down. But having nothing much to do, I started looking at the leaf again.

Some time passed.  A breeze passed through me.  I closed my eyes and enjoyed it.  And with a smile that spread on my lips and that which had reached my eyes I opened my eyes.  There was ‘the leaf’.  It looked beautiful.  A tremor of joy spread all over my body. “It’s beautiful” I said aloud. “Shh! Don’t talk. Just see!” my Guru said…

“Why can’t I share this beautiful joy with her?” I thought.  I felt sad the very next moment.  But, it didn’t seem to affect her.  Now the leaf didn’t hold that beauty to me.  With a frown on my face, I kept looking at it without any interest.  It swaved in the wind.  It’s swaying seemed rhythmic.  It sort of looked cute.  I smiled.  And then I realized when it swayed it didn’t bother or fear of falling down.  It just did.  My God! What confidence.  It just lived in the moment.  I should learn this from this leaf. I wanted to share this insight with my Guru but she didn’t seem to know of my existence, so I continued looking at the leaf again.

…contd….

(you can Related posts of this topic dated: July 30 2010, 

October 4, 2012, December 14, 2010, Friday, January 21, 2011)

The Leaf - Me, My Guru

The Leaf

She had completed explaining something when I went to her place.  “I didn’t know, we can learn from this incense stick too!” said Srinivas cheerfully.  “Now, the way I look at this incense stick every time I light it is going to change for ever.  Thanks Guruji” he concluded and took her leave.

“Now, how can that be?” I thought.  I tried to reason it and couldn’t get a satisfactory answer and so sought her.  She was looking at the Tree standing on her terrace.  “Oh! So, she’s free! She’s doing NOTHING!” I thought and stood beside her.  “How can I learn to learn from things that are around me?” I asked her.

She didn’t turn around.  She didn’t utter a word. She just kept looking at the tree.  “May be, she’s lost in some thoughts” I presumed and repeated the question once again – a bit loudly.  She still didn’t turn her head.

I waited for couple of minutes which seemed like ages to me and then repeated the question with a bit of irritation in my voice this time.

…contd….

(Related Posts dated: Aug 28th 2013, june 25th 2010)

On Love

On Love

love never seeks, it never wants.

love never forgives for it never remembers in the first place.

love gives and feels fulfilled thus.

it never keeps account for it lives in the moment.

it completes itself while giving.

love makes one a better person and never can be the reason for a person to become a bitter person.

It is not an act though it can be seen in an act.

it cannot be worded nor can it be expressed though it tries ways to express itself.

It just IS!

It’s better to be a hand that works than be a tongue that complains!

Me, My Guru

The Truth

“But, till the Ultimate Truth is realized which is Absolute, Truth is always relative” I heard her say as I entered her premises.

Even without bothering to understand what was being discussed, I questioned her “But, how can Truth be relative? It means, my Truth is different from yours - Which is nonsense.  Truth should be same for both. Right?”

She smiled and continued “Yesterday, my aunt who hadn’t met me for the past 10 years came to meet me and the moment she saw me she said “Why have you put on so much weight? Is your health fine?”

In the evening my friend who’s gone to USA for 6 months came to meet me and the moment she saw me she said “wow! What did you do to lose weight?”

Inspite of stating the opposites, both were right.  How come? Because, they were making the statement from the mental picture they already have of me and I was fat/thin with relation to that image that they carried of me. So you see, both of them made a statement which was Truthful yet varied from each other because it was relative. Get it!”

I nodded my head in affirmative yet my mind was not able to totally digest this fact.  I understood this yet didn’t completely like most of her statements.  I had to sit on this.  She continued talking to others as I lost myself to this statement. ……

Two birds

Two Birds

Two birds that I named as Peter and Pam built their nest on the windowsill.  Each would get a twig, a thread, a grass et like to build that nest.  It took quite some time for them to build that nest. 

Few days later, I saw few eggs in that nest.  Pam would sit on them when Peter would go to get some worms to eat for both Peter and Pam.  Come rain or wind, this was their routine.

Few days passed and out come the chicks. Either Peter or Pam would be on guard and the other would go alternatively to get some food and feed the chicks.  Chicks grew into birds. And, one day they just flew away.

Not one chick stayed back.  All flew away.

Peter and Pam continued with their routine of flying, feeding and sleeping.  Few weeks passed and then Pam layed eggs again. Chicks were fed and they flew away once they became strong. 

I never saw them wait for their chicks.  I never saw them brood. I never felt a vacuum or bitterness in them.  I never saw them change for worst.

They were as they were always!