Me, my Guru – on Sheikh Chilli, the dreamer!

 

Me, my Guru – on Sheikh Chilli, the dreamer!

Today, everyone seemed restless as I entered the class. And I had thought I was the only one irritated today. But, looking at everyone’s face, it was evident we all had brought our baggage of emotions of frustration, anger, and irritation to the class today. I realized we carried lots of resentment within us. And that was expressed as emotions of frustration, anger and irritation outwardly. 

And the person who was our ‘dumping ground’ – our Guru was sitting adjusting her saree (an attire worn by traditional Indian women). She must be humming some sweet melody, I presumed. I mean where was that smile coming from otherwise? She seemed oblivious to our woes. She was in the middle of and centre of our negativity and yet remained calm, poised, smiling and gentle in her conduct. How? I was to never get that answer, I believe!

Tea was served along with biscuits for all. We drank. But no one seemed to be aware of drinking it. But our Guru was seen relishing it without uttering a single word. I didn’t like it. We were in hell and yet, how can our Guru enjoy her tea and be relaxed? That seemed callous to us. (Callous – being insensitive, heartless, cold, harsh, very cruel)

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# Me, My Guru, dreamer, sadhan getting boring, expectations and conditions, desires and their fulfillment, situations don't make or break us, disturbing emotions, calmness, beingness, stillness, 

read related posts too https://kantipadam.blogspot.com/search?q=Worm+and+the+elephant+ 

Points to ponder:

"Today, everyone seemed restless as I entered the class. And I had thought I was the only one irritated today. " - We feel everyone is out there to get us when we are filled with fear. We feel the World is a beautiful place when we are joyous from within! It's the same people and the same World and yet, we find them to be different on two different occasions! The reason being our STATE OF MIND! Wouldn't it be easy and useful for us if and if only we worked on our state of mind to make our life easier and happier? Think about it!

"But, looking at everyone’s face, it was evident we all had brought our baggage of emotions of frustration, anger, and irritation to the class today." - Just read this statement as many times as possible! Be with it for a couple of minutes. Go through your past events and your state of mind! Wherever we go, we carry our baggage of emotions with us. And WE DUMP it on the places and people we encounter in our lives. And to think and say that a certain place or person is negative, well is it justified? Every time you meet someone look at the baggage you are carrying and dumping on to that person! Be aware of what you give and then you'll realize why you receive what you receive!!!

"And the person who was our ‘dumping ground’ – our Guru was sitting adjusting her saree (an attire worn by traditional Indian women). She must be humming some sweet melody, I presumed. " - Similar to this situation, it is possible that people dump their negativity on us sometimes in our lives too! But look at that Guru! She is calm and composed even though their energy is so negative! That state is a possibility! Our sadhan should be to reach that state! Our sadhan should be a practice on developing that attitude! Our sadhan should be "to be calm and blissful inspite of circumstances". That is the ONLY PURPOSE OF SADHAN!

"I mean where was that smile coming from otherwise? She seemed oblivious to our woes. She was in the middle of and centre of our negativity and yet remained calm, poised, smiling and gentle in her conduct. How? " - People will be what they are! YOU LIVE AND SHOW WHAT YOU ARE! DON'T let others behaviour DECIDE yours!

Look at the last para where Guru is considered to be callous. Is it true? If yes, why? If no, why? This is exactly how we name others. This is exactly how we judge others!

Me, my Guru On Buddha and sweets

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Me, my Guru On Buddha and sweets

But our Guru continued her explanation oblivious to our fight within “Before understanding difference between Masters and our words let us see one example. Imagine a bulb. Now it is covered by a vase which is broken at various places. Now see/imagine the light that comes out of that bulb. Look at the amount of space lighted up because of all those cracks in that vase. What do you see?” she asked.

“A room brightened up and looking beautiful!” we replied.

“Exactly! Now that bulb represents our consciousness, the energy that we, the atman – anything you call it. Vase represents the etheric sheath or aura of Masters”. 

“So, our Masters aura is broken?” blurted one of us.

And we all laughed. We loved to see our masters fail. We loved to make them less grand than they were. We loved to see them fall! We loved to break them.

“No! His ‘ego body’ is broken. And so, the light of ‘his consciousness’ expresses through that ego sheath so beautifully. Anybody who works on breaking his ego body gets to use his ‘inner and greatest energy’ to work through him. And that can move mountains.

Whereas we – we have hard ‘ego bodies’ not letting ‘the light’ of Divine express through us”

“Then where do we draw our energies from?” asked Kshama.  

She used the term ‘we’ while explaining ‘ego bodies’. Did she use it knowing our anger and to appease that or was she saying she was just one among us?

It would be a welcome thought and fact for most of us who found it difficult to put her on the pedestal. But whatever, we were to address that at a later date. 

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# on giving and receiving, ego, divinity, aura, 

also read : https://kantipadam.blogspot.com/search?q=shishya+aruni 

Read the above post to understand these points : 

• All the students are staying with the same Guru. Then how come Aruni received all when others received not?
• Is Sage Dhaumya partial or egoistic who is flattered by the act of Aruni? Does anyone want to be a student of such a Guru who is so easily fooled by a simple act?
• No. It was not the act that touched Sage Dhaumya. It was the sincerity of Aruni that touched his heart and love flowed unrestrained. Love is God and the Love of Guru when received, Universe works in favour of such a student. 
• That's why Judas suffered the curse of Jesus when Jesus was sold by him "It was better if you hadn't existed". And Judas committed suicide and yet he is said to linger in the Universe still.........whereas other students of Jesus went on to become great Apostles during their life time......
• Remove Guru and shishya from this story and replace it with Universe/God/Reiki and yourself. Universe is ever benevolent and ready to bestow abundance in all walks of life but it is uour nature that becomes block in receiving it.
• Healing doesn't force Universe to give us anything. It makes us eligible to receive what Universe has been giving to us always! 
• Heal, let go - of that anger, resentment, hatred. 
• Drop that reasoning that is justifying your anger and hatred and asking you to protect your ego. Drop it and you become miracle! 
• Let go off the emotions that are creating hell for you every waking minute of your life and then lo! you become a miracle!

Pointers to understand this post :

a."It would be a welcome thought and fact for most of us who found it difficult to put her on the pedestal" - Go through the entire blog of last 9-10 years. No where in 'Me, my guru series you will find Guru asking to be put on pedestal. She never demands any adoration, flattery or anything. Everything is done and assumed by the students themselves. They think on her behalf and call her both good and bad names. They make her and then become uncomfortable with her 'greatness' that they created and then they tear it apart or find ways to bring her 'image' down. Look at the redundancy of all these acts.......we play these games all through our life. First we make them, then we break them! Look into every relationship. First we glorify someone and say we can't live without them and then call them names and say they created hell in our life. How and when? Give it a thought! 

b."But whatever, we were to address that at a later date. ..." - Even when we get a thought that is worth a dime and is like a light house that is showing us where to go, we shut it down very smartly (thinking we are smart and doing it right!) and go about our business of being with our self that is disturbing and senseless.....why do we postpone facing ourselves as much as possible?

Miracle a day!

Yesterday I saw a red dragonfly - first time I saw such a dragonfly.....i usually see the usual common one - 

but this one was so red and so beautiful........

Me, my Guru On Buddha and sweets

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Me, my Guru On Buddha and sweets

Today ½ an hour seemed like an hour. Surprising how time expands when we are suffering and runs fast when we are happy? Does everyone feel this way or just me?

She maintained her time like a clock. Exactly ½ hr later, she took her seat. She had just sat. She hadn’t settled yet. But our restlessness found its expression through Vaishnav’s question “So you are saying Reiki Master’s words are more powerful than us students?”

She laughed as if at the joke of a kid. She settled herself. Drank from her glass and then started her answer “when did I say Reiki master?”

“You said words of Masters have more energy in them” blurted Vaishnav confused.

“Oh, that! I was telling anecdote from Buddha’s life. And so, I referred to him and other Guru’s as Masters. I never meant Reiki Masters – ever!” she replied.

Vaishnav’s anger came down considerably. And so did our restlessness. Surprising, how we listen! Even more surprising is how we process what we listen. Why did we get angry even to assume that a Reiki Master’s words carried more weightage than ours? Some of us applied it to our Guru. Even then, they had expressed anger. Why? 

But our Guru continued her explanation oblivious to our fight within “Before understanding difference between Masters and our words let us see one example. Imagine a bulb. Now it is covered by a vase which is broken at various places. Now see/imagine the light that comes out of that bulb. Look at the amount of space lighted up because of all those cracks in that vase. What do you see?” she asked.

“A room brightened up and looking beautiful!” we replied. 

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# on receiving and giving, qualities of the giver, 

also read : https://kantipadam.blogspot.com/search?q=jabala  

Read the above link given to understand : 

                                               

• the qualities required in the student to receive from the Guru
• Qualities required in any person to receive from the Universe
• When the student is ready, Master comes in his life - this means student is not waiting for someone to come and fulfill all his demands. It means he is pure in heart, worked on ego, developed patience and humility, surrenders his ego and expects nothing but to serve his Master. The quantity of qualities developed in the student is the deciding factor for how much he receives.
• When the student's state of mind is right and calm and he is pure in heart, then Guru can teach through any and every form in the Universe. 
• Guru gives/God gives/Reiki gives and is giving all through - but the big question is 'Are we ready and capable enough to receive?"

Pointers to understand this post better : 

• "She maintained her time like a clock". - The quality of being disciplined is pre-requisite to being a great person. Every person who is of good character and successful respects time and doesn't take others for granted. Even when the person grows in stature and he is waited upon by others, he still respects others time too in his every dealing! Every one thinks, dreams, wishes to be respected, successful, appreciated and be called 'great'. Greatness is achieved by such simple attitudes as respecting time and being disciplined.
• "She had just sat. She hadn’t settled yet. But our restlessness found its expression through..." - Here the character flaw of the students is evident. One who is selfish is never bothered about others comfort, time or any other thing. They are bothered only about their needs to be fulfilled. They can't wait. Their restlessness is the reflection of their selfishness. Outgrow this nature. Be sensitive to others need too. Develop patience to wait. No one owes you their time and service to you. Seek but with respect and patience. Give them space. Don't be 'ME centric' in all your dealings with people. You will drive people away from you this way! Overcome this selfishness!
• "Vaishnav’s anger came down considerably. And so did our restlessness" - this shows how our presumptions take us down the lane of hell........why wait to go to hell when we can live it in many shades with our thought process and assumptions? And we say, we are afraid of death and going to hell and living out our punishments? Are we? Then why are we creating hell for ourselves every single day of our life? This anger is burning hell that we carry with us every single minute of our life........drop it....no body can drop it for you. Be wise, be sensible, be brave enough to drop it. No one punishes us the way we punish ourselves and we then assume others to be creating problems for us. No doubt, our problems and suffering never end with this assumption?!?! Wake up! Drop this living hell! Create heaven for self! You own it! You can live it! You deserve it! And yes, even that is beautiful - more beautiful than your hell.....
• You don't become calm when you become a Master. You become Master when you become calm.

Me, My Guru – On death and healing

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Me, My Guru – On death and healing

May be that’s why our Guru always said “Don’t judge for you shall be judged!” Yes, it was so easy to see others short comings but we were oblivious to our own! – Always! And again that’s why she kept repeating “Look within! Know thyself!” Today all those words made sense. I decided to look within. Today I decided to meditate.

But she was doing her job her way. She even answered this question “we have power and choice to sit and heal. How to heal that person or situation is not what we can decide on. That is for Reiki or God to decide. We can only work as his tools.

The problem with our understanding in healing and of healing is that we expect results as per our conditioning of thoughts and beliefs. We expect results as per our needs and wants too! We condition results of our healing that way! No doubt when it doesn’t work or go that way or our way we think healing has failed! And thus put the blame of this ‘failure’ as a reason for our lack of trust. But what was wrong was not healing. What failed actually was our ‘expectation’. 

Our expectation was at fault and yet we can’t or don’t see it. Not because we can’t see it, but because we don’t want to see it that way. If we see it as a failure or mistake with our expectation, then we have to address our expectation. That means healing it. That is exactly what we have been avoiding to do all these years. And hence one expectation after another not met became the cause of our pain and suffering. And we thought and wanted to believe that ‘our expectations not being met’ was the cause of our pain and suffering. And so we looked around to find the ‘culprit’ who was responsible for the ‘expectation’ not being met and found him guilty. We called him names. We said he broke our trust. We felt cheated. We broke down. And always the ‘culprit’ was the other person in our life – be it our spouse, kid, relative, job, master or even God! Never was it our expectation! What an irony! 

We searched far and wide to find a solution for the problem to be fixed except where the problem was – within us! And so, we remained ever so dissatisfied, sad, cheated, frustrated, unhappy and full of anger. 

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(How do I highlight in this post and what do I highlight? Every single word speaks volumes and stresses the point that needs to be understood, accepted, applied, healed and finally be used to transform self and transcend it......?)

# let go, expectations, everything is there, this moment is perfect, life is lived when not conditioned, challenges of life, relationships, 

also read to see how we try to fix the problem in the wrong place https://kantipadam.blogspot.com/search?q=tora+man+darpan+kahlaaye  

Questions addressed:

• How to address the pain that we experience because of our expectations from the life?
• Is expecting others to live up to our expectation the sign of our weakness?

Points to be understood :

• As long as we justify our expectations as 'but he is supposed to be like this na..etc' you will suffer. Remember that!
• The day you accept your expectation and the condition that it is to be met is the cause of your suffering, nothing will change your life. 
• look back at your life - you wanted to pass an exam and you suffered all through that phase. It was fulfilled and then came job tension. You suffered wanting job. Then when you got it you said it was not up to the mark. Your boss was not good. Your salary was not good enough. You suffered your job too.....and then you said if only I am married I'll be happy. Then you got married and you still are suffering. And you have one valid candidate to push the blame on - husband and mil is bonus for you! The list continues.....look within. Look into the quality of your expectation and the conditions that you put there. Happiness is not something you can put conditions on to experience. 
• One who defines happiness and contentment as 'getting what he wants' is on the road of suffering and being pain to others too. He is working for his hell. He is walking hell. He is creating hell for others too in his life. No doubt he is without or hardly any close associate/friend with whom he can share his thoughts even........
• Your loneliness reflects your level of 'expectation' in your life......beware of this warning sign!
• People are not bad for running away from you. You are sending them away from yourself.

Beautiful Universal Truth :

What you are now is your choice. But your potential is something that you haven't tapped yet. That potential is something you should aim for, work for. Then sky is the limit for you and your desires. 

Don't be harsh on yourself. Don't limit yourself with the present thoughts.

Don't hanker on the small toys and events of your life.

You are heir apparent to the kingdom of heaven. Why live like a beggar?

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