Me, My Guru

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One day I was sitting on a bench under a tree. A leaf came and fell on my lap.  I took it and smiled.  I touched it to feel it and then as if an insight transpired from the leaf into me.  I felt as if it was telling me “as long as I was attached to the tree I lived full of life and happiness.  I never thought of this day when I would fall off.  And when today came, I fell without the pain of having to fall off.  I did not fear falling and losing myself into dust.  I LIVED completely then, now and ever! Can you?”  that set me thinking. Can I? I had to do lots of thinking before answering that question and I got up thinking about the answers….

It’s been long since I met her.  Today as luck would have it she was on her terrace looking at the Banyan Tree.  I went and stood beside her.  I didn’t disturb her today.  I knew what to do.  I joined her.  How long we both were on the terrace I don’t remember – but I remember not having any thoughts that day.  No words to express that joy.  A nothingness that filled me completely and tears of joy rolled down my cheeks.  I didn’t feel anything.  I just was!

Many days later as I was driving I recollected the feeling. I realized it was a state of existence that can’t be reproduced at will and it can’t be worded or expressed in any form.  I thanked my Guru for that feeling. 

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