Me, My Guru

Me, My guru

She was cleaning when I went to meet her.  I waited for sometime.  Then I realized, she wouldn’t come and sit till she is through her cleaning.  So, I put a question to her then and there.

“Yesterday, I read a strange story. It was something like this.  In a certain village, it was known to all that a zen master called everyone zen master.  He saw a master in all.  A notorious bandit once came to meet him and said “I heard everyone say that you see a zen master in everyone.  Is it true?” “Yes” replied the master.  “Do you see a zen master even in me?” asked the bandit.  “Yes” said the master.  The bandit laughed and said “But, I don’t see a master in you.  I see you as a manipulative  and dangerous bandit.  What do you have to say?”  “It’s perfect “ replied the zen master “and I also understand it.  I am a zen master and I see one in everyone and you are a dangerous bandit and you see one in everyone.  Absolutely fine.”

She smiled and said “True.  You are what you read. Apply it to various situations and see.  Practice it for few days and then I’ll explain”.

I knew I had lots of homework to do and so left her place to start practicing it…….

On celebrating life!

We take such things seriously which were meant to be for fun when created by       Gods!

The life!

The fabric of life can be woven with every single breath....so, be with the breath...and you have woven a beautiful fabric...

when the pain crosses it’s limit, that pain itself becomes the key to it’s redemption……

jab dard hadd se zyada ho jaye tho dard khud dawa ban jaata hai….

The Mirror

Whenever I Imagine myself

I see myself as beautiful –

Someone whose skin is radiant,

One who is confident,

One who is good,

And as one who deserves the best….

And who is worthy of respect that I demand from others….

But, whenever I look in the Mirror -

I see a scar,

A pimple,

Nose too big to suit my face

Hair which is both thin and grey,

I look into my eyes which speak of innumerable pains that I try to hide

The fat which is excess in my body,

Oh! Such I see a lot more

Which I wouldn’t have if I hadn’t looked into the Mirror

So I hate mirrors…..

For they show me all that I dislike about myself…

They make it clear that I am not as beautiful as I suppose to be!

and now i have removed all the mirrors from my house.....

On bucket list!

Stop listing it out and start  living......

Yesterday i was rummaging through my old papers....
i found a odd list that i had prepared years ago...
list of 50 things that give me immense pleasure and i want to do in my life....
25 years later, the list still lies unattended....
this set me thinking..
how long can i go on postponing doing things that i wanted to do since long (like learning to do something say dance, singing etc., going visiting some place....et like) - and not something like i want to hit him hard kind....
can i wait for ever...
would i be able to do these things when i retire - will my body cooperate?
think..think...think hard......
how more beautiful, full and complete would you feel if you could do things that give you joy...
make a list of things that give you happiness and you wanted to do when you were young and confident.....
now start working on that list...

Two madmen on the road

Two madmen on the road

First Madman : I wasted all my life trying to prove one person wrong…

Second Madman : and I wasted all my life trying to prove to one person that I am right…

First madman : I guess we both wasted our lives – after all!

Yesterday, I asked that I be left alone, and here I am left alone…

Yesterday, I asked that I spend my days all lone in my house, and here I am sitting all alone in my house…..

Yesterday, I asked that my spouse become dependent on my (only that can boost my ego you see!) and today my spouse is sick and dependent on me….

Yesterday, I was jealous of my partner’s success and today my partner lost a thriving career…..

Yesterday, I said my family should be totally dependent on me….and today they can’t do a thing without my help….

Yesterday, I asked to become independent, and today my guide left me…..

Whatever I asked for yesterday – it has become my today………and yet today I cry for the same reason……..

(for eg: yesterday I complained and cried that I have a spouse who doesn’t depend on me and today I cry my spouse is depending on me….)

Why and how long should  my crying go on?

Is it the problem with my prayer or asking or is there anything else….?

When will my crying stop? When will my complaints stop and when will I thank for things I have? When, when will this happen?

Today my laugh set me wondering….

Today I felt odd….

Today I realized I don’t laugh the same way everytime….

Sometimes I am laughing at others…

Sometimes it is to show off to others that I am happy (here am I trying to make others jealous of me?)….

Sometimes I laugh to hide my ignorance….(this is so very handy!)

Sometimes to hide my real feelings of negativity that I have for the other….

And only remaining few times – mind you VERY FEW TIMES I actually laugh because I am happy……

Today my laugh set me thinking….

Today my laugh sounded odd…

Today my laugh sounded hallow….

Yes, today my laugh didn’t sound good…..

Just a thought...

Six billion people and more ……

You have all sorts in this huge number –

Thin, fat, Good, bad, ugly, beautiful, intelligent, stupid, reckless, cheats, evil, selfish, hardworkers, dreamers, artists, people who spread happiness, suicidal, detached, enlightened and more – six billion and more and yet sometimes we just need one …..we are lonely because we don’t have even one….

One who is running all the time – is he running because he doesn’t know when to stop? or because he doesn’t know what to do when not running? I wonder …

One who is idle – is he idle because he hates doing things ? or because he has nothing to do? Can it be that he is so at peace with himself that he can be at peace with being still…? I wonder….

Just a thought...

Six Billion people and more in this world which we call as ours….

Some are struggling to make both ends meet…

Others  are confused not knowing what to do with the excess they have…

Some are angry about everything….

Others are ok with everything….

Some are evil trying to make life miserable for the good and kind….

Others are good fighting the bad and evil…

Some are struggling with the Truth they have just discovered…

Others are telling lies to see them through today…

Some have accepted things they once rejected…

Others are thinking to break-free..

Some are making mistakes unknowingly….

Others are mending their ways….

For some others mean nothing….

And for others some mean the world…

Yes our world is made up of both these types…..

To look for only one type would be a waste of time – for all come under some or the other…..

Is there something called as last life after which a person is not born again…..

I’ll reframe this question as “Will I be born again? And under what circumstances?”

Mmmmm…let me see – the answer for this question is both yes and no…

Yes – if you want it to be.

Yes – if you have desires unfulfilled

Yes – if you haven’t cleared all the debts – be it monetary and that of emotions.  When I say emotions – if I have cheated or hurt someone then I can’t call it quits till I am hurt by that person again and at that time if I don’t get hurt/angry and provided I forgive that person and bless him inspite of what he has done to me….then my a/c in that particular case is said to be closed….but remember, it has to be closed with everyone in all aspects …..

No – when he realizes his real self – which actually is the only reason for his birth and death

No – when he has cleared all his karmas….

Note : Here I am answering this question with an understanding that you are asking this question as “Is it possible for me not to have a “HUMAN” life again?”