Me, My Guru

"Everything’s destined!” stated my Guru. There was that air of finality that I never could cut through ever. Was it in the voice or in the conviction that My Guru carried in such related statements? Well, I never got to know that – till now!

As ever my Guru’s other statement which was paradox of “Everything’s Destined” crossed my mind. I was confused. Just when I would be ready to ingest one statement of her’s she came up with something that broke the previous statement. And it was not the first time it happened. I was confused – as ever! And out of this confusion burst out anger that I felt can be rightly poured over her. Why doesn’t she talk straight? Why are sentences full of paradoxes and oxymoron?

I waited for all to leave. My Guru was still smiling when the last student left. “So, you are confused and want to know the answer – Right? Then shoot” she said without even looking at me.

How she got to know how I felt, what I wanted to know has been driving me crazy since our first meeting. But, that can wait for now. The pressing one for now is to ask this question that’s bothering me since then. “Today you said “Everything’s Destined” and just few days back I don’t know when exactly but, you said “we create our own Destiny!” how can you be contradictory” I asked. I don’t know the feeling that I felt then – but it wasn’t good – nay it was very bad and suffocating too!

 

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