Me, my Guru – on ego!

 

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Me, my Guru – on ego!

The Guru just kept walking towards the ashram”

I sat with my head hung in shame. I thought I knew about ego! There in lay my ego. I assumed I knew better. I couldn’t be more wrong! And there lay my ego!

We were restless when our Guru was given a break. We weren’t ready to wait. Why should we wait? We felt our need to be addressed fully then and there. We were adamant for our desire and in there lay our ego. We were angry at her break. We didn’t see her tiredness. We never bothered about her needs. For us, she was there to cater to our needs and wants. In that selfishness laid our ego.

Our anger we dumped on her. We never sought her forgiveness. And even if we did it was without any regret or remorse. It was not because we realized our wrong. It was not because we were ashamed of our behaviour towards her. It was just an act of formality to please her ego (as per our assumption!?). It was done so that we didn’t incur any ‘karma’ because of our act. We didn’t want to accrue any karma because of our act and behaviour but at the same time we were not even repenting for our behaviour. We still didn’t realize that we had hurt her. In all this lay our ego!

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# on ego, Me, My Guru, king and the guru - story, 

also read : https://kantipadam.blogspot.com/search?q=elephants+represent+ego

Pointers in this post : 

"The  Guru kept walking....ashram" - Read the previous post once again to understand this statement. See how the person who is doing 'nishkama karma' or working through his egolessness/spirit does the 'right karma' and yet moves on after completing the job. The person who walks the path of Dharma doesn't keep promoting himself. He doesn't market himself and his 'goodness'. He doesn't demand returns for his 'good deeds' or right sense of judgement and actions. He does it and moves on. It just becomes his nature. That is walking on Dharma.

"I sat with my head hung in shame. I thought I knew about ego! There in lay my ego. I assumed I knew better. I couldn’t be more wrong! And there lay my ego!" - Whenever we 'assume' we know, know that ego is at play there. We sin in the name of 'knowing'. 

"We were restless.....in that selfishness lay our ego" - We are ever demanding in our relationships - be it with children, spouse, parents, relatives, country, Guru or even God. We look at what we WANT AND SHOULD GET in every relationship. Know that to be play of ego. When we look at every mistake the other commits know it to be ego. When we keep count of what the other is supposed to do for us and presume we have done enough for them, know it is ego. Ego kills everything in a relationship. Love never hurts. It is the ego that is in relationship that becomes the seed of hurt.

"Our anger we dumped on her......hurt her. ....ego" - We project our anger, frustrations, irritation and everything in that line on every relationship. We justify our emotions saying '..but they didn't do this or they did this maam...' Have you ever stood in other's shoes and felt how they felt while you were shouting so? Think about it! And yet, we complain, we are 'the sufferers' in the relationship?

The third step is the hurdle that stops me from realizing self- i.e., Ego.

It's the 'Power centre'- which makes us crave for money, money and more money represented by the money tree - which gives us an illusion of happiness, security, abundance proportionate to the money that we have.

Crystal tree shows us the possibilities of expressions in our life - the positive use of ego.

Hare Rama Hare Krishna dolls represent the only way to use our ego, that is, to lead our life as an expression of his will.

Jokers say that there are thousands of jokers in the world – and no two jokers have an identical make-up, but each joker stands out with his make-up. Like-wise, though we all lead more or less the same type of existence we can bring our unique 'I’ness (or) ‘our touch' to our existence that can express our unique Quality.

Nature also can't produce a second you that way, every person is unique. Why not accept it, celebrate it- find it and express it, instead of comparing ourselves with one and all and trying to be one-e-one also!

Elephants represent Ego. Smallest First elephant represent the ego of our body our beauty, physical strength and our entire existential ego.

Second Elephant represents arrogance that comes with fulfilling our responsibilities and living that, like, I take care of my parents, I fend for my family, I go to office to earn for my family, I get up early, I am a 'good' spouse/father/son

Third elephant- Ego comes from success and achievements - I've huge house/assets/degrees/posts.

Fourth elephant- I am a sensitive, good Samaritan ( a person who does charity, helps people), etc.

Fifth elephant- I am highly talented.

Sixth Elephant- arrogance of knowledge know how

Seventh elephant- This is the biggest elephant and the most difficult to break once it manifests- spiritual ego. Ego that comes by following scriptures, faiths or techniques which are for spiritual upliftment.

Knowledge is required to break the bondage of ignorance but ultimately "knowledge itself becomes the bondage".

Only way to break it is Bhaja Govindham Bhaja Govindham Govindham bhaja Moodamathe.... Sing the praise of Govinda to break the bondage of life and death.