Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Me, My guru

Me, My Guru

She was standing on the terrace with her back towards me when I went to meet her. I walked slowly, silently not wanting to frighten her.  She seemed lost in some thoughts.  As I neared her even without turning her head she said ‘ which question is weighing so heavily on you today?”  I smiled at myself and replied ‘why can’t I trust?’ 
She turned suddenly with a twinkle in her eyes and a chuckle that was so sweet when she asked “Trust on whom?”

“On Reiki, God – why, I don’t even trust you completely” I replied sheepishly.

She nodded her head and turned her face.  It was as if it meant nothing.  I just now said ‘I don’t ‘trust you’ and yet here she was – her unfazelled self as ever.

Having nothing else to do, I went and stood beside her and started staring where I supposed she was looking at.  I didn’t see anything there.  Few minutes passed.  Sometimes, silence in her company took me to a different level of experience.  I couldn’t word it many times – yet it was so fulfilling and on other times it was terrifying.  Today was one such moment.  I just promised myself – 5 minutes and I would leave her.  But it was not to be so.


‘you see that Banyan tree?’  her voice cut through the silence.

...contd.....

2 comments:

Kshitija said...

Judge not or he shall be judged or judge not u shall be judged

I tried to practice non judgement it is the most difficult thing I ever tried to practice because when I started this then some time I felt that my breathing would stop and some time I even forgot about it and all the promises I made to myself to practice it how funny but this is very difficult because I realized that I judge every thing living, Non living ,Fan ,book, table every thing I have some thing or other to say about each and every thing I was amazed I am putting some much of my energy , Time etc in doing this and even when I am quiet my subconscious mind is doing the process My God this is very good exercise I will practice further too and then would try my best and meet to in comments of the next blog
This journey of knowing the things is awesome
Regards
Kshitija.S

Aparna Deshpande said...

🙌🙏❤️